Whatever you saw in me one day, I wish you could still know that about me. So I could believe in what we once had just because I don’t want my heart holding on to anything that might not be there.
I want to feellike that womanwho caught the man’s eye that she could not stand because he thought he had so much swag.
You need to make me feel like that woman who was able to feel a billion butterflies; the only way she could handlebeing around him was to look away from him once in a Blue Moon.
So it would not be so apparent that she was into him and that he could have a standing chance if he played his cards right.
The only way she could feel that way was to find it within himself to become that person; my eyes once became glued too.
So I understand that it takes two to go and come back from what we were. Ms. Butterfly Genesis�
People shut me down, Ms. Butterfly, for a While, not because I’m afraid of losing anything but because I have respect enough not to involve anyone with nothing to do with what he and I use to be.
I swear on everyone I love and loved that the rebirth of Ms. ButterfIy will happen again, and she is coming with a vengeance.
It’s a shame that you have to tear people down to feel good about whatever you want to do with your life, Or you Fear anyone else succeeding over you without using the method you use to stay on top.
If no one wants to hear or read what Ms. Butterfly has to say, they don’t have to support me because that will not kill my writing passion.
Any time anyone has tried to cut my wing is because they are afraid to see what I made of because I’ve never shown what my true colors could be because that is so far away from my character.
I have a passion for words. No matter what anybody feels, that is my passion, and I’m not looking for fame or fortune.
I want to have a place to put my feelings in.
Regardless ofwho or what tries to hold her down, she understands that she deserves To succeed just like everyone else in the world.
Ms. Butterfly will follow when her time comes, and only God knows when it’s the right time for her to shine, but she is not going to sit back and wait; she’s going to find her shine because she knows that God helps those who help themselves.
The rebirth of Ms. Butterfly will happen because that’s what she wanted, and she knows that that’s what she deserves, and no one will give it to her, so she’s going to take what she deserves.
As the rebirth of Ms. Butterfly, she knows she can’t see what she can’t control; the only thing she knows is she has to continue to be as transparent as she has been through her writing. Ms. Butterfly Genesis🇩🇴
Hi, my name is Erika M. Santana My brother & I were born on 09/04/81
Besides being the youngest of four older siblings, we were born with cerebral palsy, which meant that our brain didn‘t get enough oxygen to many different parts of our minds during childbirth.
I have always been told that I was the most vigorous twin out of my brother & me because I didn’t need so many machines to keep me alive; unlike my brother, he needed a lot more assistance keeping himself in check. Anyone reading this must keep in mind that my twin and I were born at two a half pounds each.
As our life counties, I realized that I wasn’t the strongest out of the twins anymore, and our family is from a different country from the United States; our family did the best they could do with our disability.
Whatever else was unfamiliar to us as a family, we tried our very best to learn as we kept going so our family could make the right decisions for my brother and me.
This is me
I‘m someone who needs someone from the time my eyes pop open for the simple things that most people take for granted: getting up and getting into my wheelchair alone.
I entered the bathroom and washed my Purse because my hands were not strong enough to scrub her down the way she deserves. Imagine a grown-assertion doing number# two and then having someone wiping them because they can’t do themselves in life. That’s only a tiny part of my crazy life.
Dressing me is a lot of fun, too, because the only thing I can do is decide what I’m going to wear, while others get me dressed as if I was a newborn. Yes, I can brush my teeth and food myself, depending on my hands themselves.
I want people to understand that I’m not too fond of the relationship I have with food because if I get fat, no one will want to help me if I allow myself to enjoy eating the way everyone else does.
Food is a control thing for me. Afterall, it’s the only thing I can decide because everything else in my life is a dictatorship.
Now that I have listed all my crazy negatives, let me see if I can list some positive things that I can or have done for myself. I‘m smart and not afraid to learn new things, whether in a book or life.
I love opening myself on paper if my sentence structure can sometimes make no sense because missing words is a lot of the time. After all, my head can be a little faster than my hands.
I have also managed to fall head over heels in love with some fantastic people who have taught me so much about myself.
Despite my physical limitations, I engaged in my first sexual experience at 21 with someone who saw me as a person, not my chair.
I also had the willpower to become someone’s wife, even though the whole world was against my decision because my marriage was going to fail. Of course, people will assume I regret my decision with a failed marriage, but I don’t because I did it myself.
My limitations have never defined me because I know I am more than the wheels I use as my legs. I’m a human being first.
The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly 