The Becoming Of Ms. Butterfly Genesis
Real life. Real growth. Real becoming
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TheWeight Silence
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≻: TheWeight SilenceI am lost for words, yet something insists on being spoken. When I choose silence, I find myself singing a…
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Peace looks like me
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≻: Peace looks like meI wish you could see me now.Not because I need you to, but because I finally can.I’m in the most…
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I finally see it
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≻: I finally see itI finally see what you were trying to show me all those years ago. That I needed to grow—not louder,…
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I chose me over you, and that’s how I found everything I thought I lost.
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≻: I chose me over you, and that’s how I found everything I thought I lost.Body: I’ve always known I was blessed in more ways than one. But for a long time, I couldn’t see…
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“I Lost You, But I Found Me”
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≻: “I Lost You, But I Found Me”I lost you—But in the losing,I found the map again. I found my voiceIn the quiet strengthI didn’t know I…
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Between Knowing and Feeling”
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≻: Between Knowing and Feeling”My mind, like a compass,has charted the map of survival—a terrain of letting go,where love is lighter than loss,And freedom…
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A Prayer of Sacred Surrender
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≻: A Prayer of Sacred SurrenderI open my heart to you, not polished or guarded,But torn and trembling, willing.I lay down love, not love as…
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Ask Instead
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≻: Ask InsteadI was born stitched from stars misaligned, different by design— not broken, but blazing. They stare, but don’t see the…
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Battle
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≻: BattleI was born into battle a world that tested me, a love that constrained me, but never a force strong…
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Blue Blooded Silence
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≻: Blue Blooded SilenceWhat else is left to saywhen the heart has screamed itself hoarse,when its walls have cracked wide openso someone—anyone—could seethe…
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I Want
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≻: I WantI want my heart to still,to silence the echo of your name.I want my ribs to unburdenthe weight of love…
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Rise Again
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≻: Rise AgainYesterday casts its shadow long,A melody, a distant song.Today, we try, we bend, we mold,Yet yesterday’s grip feels firm and…
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Reflection On Love & Inner Peace
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≻: Reflection On Love & Inner PeaceI tinted his heart with shades of regret,Lost in the echoes of words unsaid.It is more straightforward to break than…
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SELF commitment
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≻: SELF commitmentIt’s been a while since I put pen to paper, so here goes nothing. 2024 is leaving, and we’re welcoming…
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Pressure
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≻: PressureI hate reliving the past, but it is so difficult not when a simple word can take me to a…
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LOVE LANGUAGE.
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≻: LOVE LANGUAGE.MY DESIRE TO SCREAM I PROMISE TO ANYONE WHO IS CRAZY ENOUGH TO READ THIS THAT MY DESIRE TO SCREAM…
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43 Coming Soon
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≻: 43 Coming SoonI’m blessed that I am going to be blessed to see 43. It’s a blessing because I was not supposed…
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Waiting
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Home
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Mabel INC
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≻: Mabel INCYour journey with Ms. Butterfly Genesis sounds truly inspiring, and it’s wonderful to hear how you’ve channeled your blessings into…
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Beauty isn’t everything
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≻: Beauty isn’t everythingStrength, indeed, is a remarkable form of beauty. It transcends mere appearances, reaching deep within the core of every woman.…
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Being Me
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≻: Being MeFor a long time, I thought that lying was the right thing to do, but self-consciously, I knew it was the wrong…
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Girl
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≻: GirlGIRL, WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF?MY RESPONSE IS SIMPLY WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU I’M IN LOVE WITH HIM.YOU…
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Start
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≻: StartClose one door before opening another door. I am trapped in a doorway I have tried to close for many…
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Birthdays
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≻: BirthdaysBirthdays are a celebration of life and the person accomplishes, whether here or not.Birth is a true gift from god…
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Empowerment
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≻: EmpowermentI need to get something off my chest, and it’s essential. We always talk about women’s empowerment, but it’s so…
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Cerebral Palsy
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≻: Cerebral PalsyMarch is the month of Cerebral palsy, and for those who don’t know what that means, I don’t look at…
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Enough
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≻: EnoughI am enough. I did enough. I can let go. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
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My Person
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≻: My PersonThere is so much bullshit going on in the world beyond my heart.But I seriously can not help and feel…
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Under
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≻: UnderI don’t want to be stupid.For you to be successful, I have to have the strength to the door of…
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Against wanting
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≻: Against wantingTo stop loving him, I need to use my heartlessness and allow my mind to take over. Even with all…
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Find It
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≻: Find ItI lost myself while trying to please everyone in my life or around my life. The funny thing is that while…
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Home
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≻: HomeHome is comfy.`Home is safety.Home is love.Home understands that no matter how badly I could mess up, those arms will…
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You
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≻: YouBe fearless.Be unapologetic.Be worthy. Be you. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
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Insignificant
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≻: InsignificantShe is insignificant.She is worthless.She has no value in my life.No matter what she tries, she will always fail simply…
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Souls
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≻: SoulsWe should never force pieces to fall into place.Pieces should fall into place naturally without someone forcing it.If we try…
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Choices
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≻: ChoicesMy heart is weighty simply because, as women, we take our abilities to have children for granted. The main reason…
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Knife
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≻: KnifeDon’t keep stabbing me with your words. I stab myself every day with the reminder of not having you a…
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Find what makes us
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≻: Find what makes usSometimes in life, we let particular things in our own lives discourage us from what we want for ourselves.I know…
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Loop Off
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≻: Loop OffI find myself in the place where I’m asking myself where, when, and how I could end up here again.…
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Incomplete WOMAN
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≻: Incomplete WOMANIf I am incomplete as a woman to myself, how can I pretend to be whole to the rest of…
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I am Happy
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≻: I am HappyIf I am happy today, it has nothing to do with you. If you see me satisfied, leave me alone…
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Saint Jude (Home away from Home
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≻: Saint Jude (Home away from HomeI thought this would be a simple piece for me to write because I’m so used to putting my feelings…
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won’t
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≻: won’tIt’s not that I can’t stop speaking to him. It’s more about how I feel when I don’t talk to…
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Open Mouth
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≻: Open MouthWriting has always been therapeutic because I can talk myself through my words, feelings, and emotions. There’s another way I’ve…
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Gift Or Plan
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≻: Gift Or PlanGod has a plan for everyone who enters the world. However, I have never been quite sure what his goal…
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My love lettler
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≻: My love lettlerI have no clue why I decided on 11/16/21 to write him a love letter, but I am guessing there…
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Bipolar
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≻: BipolarCall me bipolar because my emotions have a way of going up and down, or sometimes I find ways of…
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Coming into your own
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≻: Coming into your ownNo one would ever have to say they deserve better if they understood that beginning better is within themselves.Saying I…
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Can’t
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≻: Can’tWe love to play the blame a lot of time when we say that people stand in our way to…
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I should be
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≻: I should beI should not be just an option.I should be that first choice.I should be your first thought in the morning.I…
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Rock Bottom
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≻: Rock BottomIt’s true what people say, everything in life happens for a reason & we must hit rock bottom before we…
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A part
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≻: A partI don’t want to look back because that might be blurring my future.I don’t want to look back because I…
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Roles
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≻: RolesI wear many hats.I wear the hat of being a daughter.I wear the hat of being a sister.I wear the…
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Better Version
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≻: Better VersionI want to be a better version of myself for myself and no one else.I can become a better version…
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Choosing myself
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≻: Choosing myselfI choose myself.If I don’t have the strength to choose myself, how else can I expect anyone to choose me?…
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Therapy
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≻: TherapyBrokenDamagedI am left questioning my purpose or why I decided to share my thoughts with the world.I feel like I…
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What is normal?
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≻: What is normal?ANYTIME PEOPLE TALK ABOUT HAVING A NORMAL LIFE, I QUESTION MYSELF ON WHAT DOES HAVING A NORMAL LIFE MEANS.DOES IT…
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My wheelchair isn’t A Stop Sign.
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≻: My wheelchair isn’t A Stop Sign.Whenever I see my wheelchair, I see an accessory that I’m an honor to show off. From this day forward,…
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Not me
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≻: Not meVictim, I am not. Yes, I have a disability, but I am not my disability. If I get scared unexceptionable,…
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No Picture
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≻: No PictureCerebral palsy is not something I could never be embarrassed by; cerebral palsy is something that I have lived with…
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Beyond disabilities
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≻: Beyond disabilitiesMy physical disability is not something I’m trying to hide.My physical disability is not something I’m trying to hide or…
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Painting
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≻: PaintingNo one ever has to agree on how I feel, but the way I feel is like I am just…
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Open Wounds
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≻: Open WoundsOpen heart.Open wounds need to be closed, but no idea how to approach them. There’s not a Band-Aid big enough…
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Sharing Myself
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≻: Sharing MyselfThings have gotten so far to come back. I wish I could share my feelings with the world to understand…
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International struggles
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≻: International strugglesTrigger words for me are:You are starting to feel heavy.You are fat.You need to talk to someone who can help…
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My prayer for her
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≻: My prayer for herGod, please wrap your arms around her and let her know that she’s not alone. God, I’m asking you from…
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Scars
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≻: ScarsSome people choose to run from their scars.I refuse to run from anything that shows that I made through a…
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Pink Ribbon
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≻: Pink RibbonThe pink ribbon is a representation of the battle. That many women face today doesn’t matter the age, race, or…
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Expectations
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≻: ExpectationsHe was the one person that gave her world because that’s what she meant to him.So he poured everything he…
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Help
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≻: HelpAddictiondarknesslonelinesswithdrawn from the world.When things fall apart, so do you.Trying to speak, but no one is listening.Ashamed.I was embarrassed because…
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Unlike
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≻: UnlikeBEING HUMAN DOES NOT MEAN WE SHOULD ALL LOOK ALIKE. BEING HUMAN DOESN’T MEAN; WE SHOULD NOT ALL BE THE…
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Alone
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≻: AloneI’m alone in more than one.I’m alone in the sense that I feel crazy trapped in my feels.Anytime I open…
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Whole Again
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≻: Whole AgainIt’s natural to break someone’s heart.The challenging part of dealing with someone who has been torn apart is knowing that…
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Overdose
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≻: OverdoseI finally did to myself; my life has ended; I’ve overdosed. No, not on coke, crack, or even ecstasy. I…
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UNSPOKEN
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≻: UNSPOKENI don’t mind when people find themselves talking about me and the kind of person I am because people don’t…
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Finalizing
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≻: Finalizing7 PM in my bed watching a movie million and one thought running through my head.I can’t make sense of…
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Home
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≻: HomeAnytime things get tough, she finds herself contemplating when things were pretty not smooth but smooth enough to make her…
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Best Friends
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≻: Best FriendsShe falls in love with her best friend.Friendship without expecting anything in return made that much easier for them to…
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Friendship Role
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≻: Friendship RoleIt hurts to be the bigger person, but it needs to be done, especially if I want his friendship.Friendship is…
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Close the door
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≻: Close the doorClose the door before allowing another door to open. Closing the door on something like your past makes sure that…
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I’m not, but I’m so much more
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≻: I’m not, but I’m so much moreI’m not smart enough for you.I’m not beautiful enough for you.I’m not even sexy enough for you.I’m not enough woman…
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Under conditional love
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≻: Under conditional loveSaying that she doesn’t care about me would be very unfair because I have seen with my own eyes what…
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Daddy Isuesses
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≻: Daddy IsuessesI know his name. I saw his face whenever he was home. There were a few times where Iwould have…
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Motherhood
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≻: MotherhoodWhen women decided to become mothers, it was an honor that god blessed.Being a mother is a gift that should…
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Daughter
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≻: DaughterI want to raise a daughter to believe in herself.I want to raise a daughter to know she can be…
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Burden not a blessing
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≻: Burden not a blessingIt’s crazy; it doesn’t matter how old I get or how much time passes; her words always seem to affect…
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Letting Go
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≻: Letting GoI am not a parent, but I am struggling to let go because I am the baby of my family,…
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Fly By
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≻: Fly ByAnytime I have time to look back on things that happen in my life, I feel like I did not…
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The race of life
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≻: The race of lifeI am running one of the craziest races against myself because I want to know how far I can go…
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Hate On Me
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≻: Hate On MeJudge me when you have become a god.Judge me when you have walked a mile in my shoes.Judge me when…
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Disabled on the Street
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≻: Disabled on the StreetDisabled people are human beings & as human beings, we have earned the same or little more rights than people…
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Failing System
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≻: Failing SystemI’m living on a system that is failing me every single day that goes by.By telling me that as much…
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Untimely
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≻: UntimelyHow does she stop being a burden to others? I don’t want to be a burden, and I don’t even…
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I rolled in my wheelchair
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≻: I rolled in my wheelchairTo understand how someone lives, you have to live in their shoes before passing judgment on their lives.Everyone thinks that…
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Reliving
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≻: RelivingI saw what I wanted to see.I felt things that I never thought I could feel again.The best feeling I…
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No guarantees
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≻: No guaranteesI want to love.I want to make sure that you will be there to catch me if I fall in…
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The Cover-up
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≻: The Cover-upLove is patient.Love is understanding.Love is growing together and becoming one.Love is fighting and knowing when it’s time to let…
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Temporary
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≻: TemporaryTemporary people always find a way to teach you long-term lessons. Temporary people are not meant to be long-term people,…
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Love
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≻: LoveI wish I could run, but where would I hide.I would love to hide from my heart because my heart…
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Open Heart
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≻: Open HeartInvisible unheard unseen unwanted unneeded Unloved These are all the feelings that I feel anytime I feel ignored by anyone…
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The Gift
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≻: The GiftThe most fantastic part of any woman is how she can use her body to bring new life into this…
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Only God Knows
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≻: Only God KnowsCan we start over? If we do start over, how do we even know where to begin. Those questions can…
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How many Times
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≻: How many TimesHow many of us say that we won’t look back? Not looking back is because how can anyone grow when…
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Trial & Error
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≻: Trial & ErrorI’ve been going through some changes in myself; a wrong decision has me questioning myself, but I don’t want anybody…
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Dear Self
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≻: Dear SelfShe wants to speak for herself through my own words, but no real clue how to do so because she…
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Unhappiness
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≻: UnhappinessShe understands happiness & love don’t come from a man but her loving herself first. She also understands that she…
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Pen & paper
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≻: Pen & paperIt’s been a while since I have taken pen to paper to say how I feel. I made it to…
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Blogging
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≻: BloggingI love knowing that I can write my feelings away on paper. I have never claimed to be a professional…
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Just Me
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≻: Just MeHi, my name is Erika M. SantanaMy brother & I were born on 09/04/81 Besides being the youngest of four…
The Becoming Of Ms. Butterfly Genesis 