The Becoming Of Ms. Butterfly Genesis
Real life. Real growth. Real becoming
Struggles
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A Country That Promises Freedom, Yet Punishes Voices Like Mine
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≻: A Country That Promises Freedom, Yet Punishes Voices Like MineI don’t usually talk about politics. Honestly, once you put people in power, they stop caring about the people who…
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TheWeight Silence
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≻: TheWeight SilenceI am lost for words, yet something insists on being spoken. When I choose silence, I find myself singing a…
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A Prayer of Sacred Surrender
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≻: A Prayer of Sacred SurrenderI open my heart to you, not polished or guarded,But torn and trembling, willing.I lay down love, not love as…
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Ask Instead
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≻: Ask InsteadI was born stitched from stars misaligned, different by design— not broken, but blazing. They stare, but don’t see the…
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Battle
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≻: BattleI was born into battle a world that tested me, a love that constrained me, but never a force strong…
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The Outside Looking In
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≻: The Outside Looking InI speak aloud,and the world echoes back—a reflection I never sawuntil now. I was always here,beneath the layers they painted…
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Worthy of Me
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≻: Worthy of MeI should not let another’s whispercommand the tides within my heart.Yet one breath—just one—And I am weightless,adrift in longing,forgetting that…
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Blue Blooded Silence
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≻: Blue Blooded SilenceWhat else is left to saywhen the heart has screamed itself hoarse,when its walls have cracked wide openso someone—anyone—could seethe…
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≻: untitled post 6334I opened a chapter of my life,I thought she might read my words,Understand my heart,Comprehend the weight of where I…
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Foot Steps
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≻: Foot StepsIn the stillness, I linger,A traveler lost between roads,Footsteps echo in the same hollow,Dreams perched on horizons untold. The clock…
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Reflection On Love & Inner Peace
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≻: Reflection On Love & Inner PeaceI tinted his heart with shades of regret,Lost in the echoes of words unsaid.It is more straightforward to break than…
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LOVE LANGUAGE.
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≻: LOVE LANGUAGE.MY DESIRE TO SCREAM I PROMISE TO ANYONE WHO IS CRAZY ENOUGH TO READ THIS THAT MY DESIRE TO SCREAM…
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Beauty isn’t everything
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≻: Beauty isn’t everythingStrength, indeed, is a remarkable form of beauty. It transcends mere appearances, reaching deep within the core of every woman.…
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Not Ashame to ask for help
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≻: Not Ashame to ask for helpWhy is asking for help such a difficult thing for people to do? We hurt ourselves a lot more when…
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Girl
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≻: GirlGIRL, WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF?MY RESPONSE IS SIMPLY WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU I’M IN LOVE WITH HIM.YOU…
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Start
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≻: StartClose one door before opening another door. I am trapped in a doorway I have tried to close for many…
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Keep Our Children Save (Nashville)
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≻: Keep Our Children Save (Nashville)Children are true blessings that can change the world.Children have the best chance to teach people about love kinds accept…
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Empowerment
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≻: EmpowermentI need to get something off my chest, and it’s essential. We always talk about women’s empowerment, but it’s so…
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Cerebral Palsy
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≻: Cerebral PalsyMarch is the month of Cerebral palsy, and for those who don’t know what that means, I don’t look at…
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Under
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≻: UnderI don’t want to be stupid.For you to be successful, I have to have the strength to the door of…
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Puzzle Of Mental Health
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≻: Puzzle Of Mental HealthStephen Boss, a charismatic hip-hop dancer and television personality known as tWitch who rose to fame on the reality show…
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Home
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≻: HomeHome is comfy.`Home is safety.Home is love.Home understands that no matter how badly I could mess up, those arms will…
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You
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≻: YouBe fearless.Be unapologetic.Be worthy. Be you. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
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Voice
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≻: VoiceI can’t be scared of who I am.I am not a superwoman, even though I love playing someone who can…
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Lifetime
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≻: LifetimeA lifetime seems impossible even when feeling like we have the best base relationship. Even the best base can have…
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Souls
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≻: SoulsWe should never force pieces to fall into place.Pieces should fall into place naturally without someone forcing it.If we try…
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Above Water
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≻: Above WaterI saw another beautiful soul left this earth. Yes, I understood it was going to happen because that is the…
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Safety Place
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≻: Safety PlaceI began my blog because I needed a safe space to express myself and my feelings without judgment. I’ve felt…
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Happy Mother’s Day
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≻: Happy Mother’s DayI’m not speaking from a mother’s perspective but a daughter’s perspective; why do mothers only deserve one day to be…
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Knife
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≻: KnifeDon’t keep stabbing me with your words. I stab myself every day with the reminder of not having you a…
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Goodbye doesn’t exist
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≻: Goodbye doesn’t existAnytime I think about the last time you and I spoke anytime, I think about the last time you and…
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Find what makes us
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≻: Find what makes usSometimes in life, we let particular things in our own lives discourage us from what we want for ourselves.I know…
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≻: untitled post 4385Nothing I do with my life will ever make sense to anyone, and at this point in my life, I’m…
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Loop Off
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≻: Loop OffI find myself in the place where I’m asking myself where, when, and how I could end up here again.…
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Reaction
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≻: ReactionBefore I begin putting this piece together, I would love to start by saying I’m not attacking men for defending…
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Incomplete WOMAN
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≻: Incomplete WOMANIf I am incomplete as a woman to myself, how can I pretend to be whole to the rest of…
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Instrument
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≻: InstrumentEveryone is a voice. Everyone has a voice. Everyone has the right to use their voice, but people must understand…
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No Name
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≻: No NameFindingKnowingUnderstandingAcknowledgingPushing beyond all obstacles that say no while I say yes, I will.Yes, I will be true no matter who…
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The Light
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≻: The LightIt’s incredible what happens between two people when there’s no real conversation. It’s taking me 14 to 15 years to…
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I am Happy
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≻: I am HappyIf I am happy today, it has nothing to do with you. If you see me satisfied, leave me alone…
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Educated
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≻: EducatedTeachable moments happen every day, and it’s up to us if we accept them at teachable moments in our lives.…
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won’t
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≻: won’tIt’s not that I can’t stop speaking to him. It’s more about how I feel when I don’t talk to…
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Breathe
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≻: BreatheI breathe to stay alive.Every breath I take comes with unbearable pain, not only because my body is breaking down…
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The One
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≻: The OneI need to love myself a little bit more. But, I can only do that by realizing that I need…
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Gift Or Plan
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≻: Gift Or PlanGod has a plan for everyone who enters the world. However, I have never been quite sure what his goal…
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Forever
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≻: ForeverNow that I no longer have you, I wish I could have used my time the right way.At this point,…
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Under Construction
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≻: Under ConstructionI am not the best writer in the world, and I’m not trying to be. When I decided to pick…
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Bipolar
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≻: BipolarCall me bipolar because my emotions have a way of going up and down, or sometimes I find ways of…
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Coming into your own
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≻: Coming into your ownNo one would ever have to say they deserve better if they understood that beginning better is within themselves.Saying I…
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The biggest lie I told
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≻: The biggest lie I toldI’m good.I’m OK.I”m fine.I am happy.A smile so no one wonders about my unwanted tears in my eyes constantly crying…
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Starting Over
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≻: Starting OverLife is about up and down. Sometimes the ups and downs we go through in life scare us from the…
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Rock Bottom
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≻: Rock BottomIt’s true what people say, everything in life happens for a reason & we must hit rock bottom before we…
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Body image
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≻: Body imageI have no control over my body because my disability does not allow my ability to shine through. Other people…
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A part
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≻: A partI don’t want to look back because that might be blurring my future.I don’t want to look back because I…
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Becoming Myself
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≻: Becoming MyselfIs knowing who I am.I am not caring what anybody thinks about me because I refuse to live for anyone…
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Roles
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≻: RolesI wear many hats.I wear the hat of being a daughter.I wear the hat of being a sister.I wear the…
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Better Version
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≻: Better VersionI want to be a better version of myself for myself and no one else.I can become a better version…
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Choosing myself
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≻: Choosing myselfI choose myself.If I don’t have the strength to choose myself, how else can I expect anyone to choose me?…
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Therapy
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≻: TherapyBrokenDamagedI am left questioning my purpose or why I decided to share my thoughts with the world.I feel like I…
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What is normal?
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≻: What is normal?ANYTIME PEOPLE TALK ABOUT HAVING A NORMAL LIFE, I QUESTION MYSELF ON WHAT DOES HAVING A NORMAL LIFE MEANS.DOES IT…
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My wheelchair isn’t A Stop Sign.
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≻: My wheelchair isn’t A Stop Sign.Whenever I see my wheelchair, I see an accessory that I’m an honor to show off. From this day forward,…
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Not me
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≻: Not meVictim, I am not. Yes, I have a disability, but I am not my disability. If I get scared unexceptionable,…
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No Picture
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≻: No PictureCerebral palsy is not something I could never be embarrassed by; cerebral palsy is something that I have lived with…
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Beyond disabilities
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≻: Beyond disabilitiesMy physical disability is not something I’m trying to hide.My physical disability is not something I’m trying to hide or…
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Open Wounds
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≻: Open WoundsOpen heart.Open wounds need to be closed, but no idea how to approach them. There’s not a Band-Aid big enough…
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International struggles
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≻: International strugglesTrigger words for me are:You are starting to feel heavy.You are fat.You need to talk to someone who can help…
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My prayer for her
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≻: My prayer for herGod, please wrap your arms around her and let her know that she’s not alone. God, I’m asking you from…
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Scars
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≻: ScarsSome people choose to run from their scars.I refuse to run from anything that shows that I made through a…
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Pink Ribbon
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≻: Pink RibbonThe pink ribbon is a representation of the battle. That many women face today doesn’t matter the age, race, or…
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Help
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≻: HelpAddictiondarknesslonelinesswithdrawn from the world.When things fall apart, so do you.Trying to speak, but no one is listening.Ashamed.I was embarrassed because…
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Unlike
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≻: UnlikeBEING HUMAN DOES NOT MEAN WE SHOULD ALL LOOK ALIKE. BEING HUMAN DOESN’T MEAN; WE SHOULD NOT ALL BE THE…
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Alone
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≻: AloneI’m alone in more than one.I’m alone in the sense that I feel crazy trapped in my feels.Anytime I open…
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Whole Again
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≻: Whole AgainIt’s natural to break someone’s heart.The challenging part of dealing with someone who has been torn apart is knowing that…
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Overdose
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≻: OverdoseI finally did to myself; my life has ended; I’ve overdosed. No, not on coke, crack, or even ecstasy. I…
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UNSPOKEN
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≻: UNSPOKENI don’t mind when people find themselves talking about me and the kind of person I am because people don’t…
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Friendship Role
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≻: Friendship RoleIt hurts to be the bigger person, but it needs to be done, especially if I want his friendship.Friendship is…
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I’m not, but I’m so much more
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≻: I’m not, but I’m so much moreI’m not smart enough for you.I’m not beautiful enough for you.I’m not even sexy enough for you.I’m not enough woman…
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Daddy Isuesses
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≻: Daddy IsuessesI know his name. I saw his face whenever he was home. There were a few times where Iwould have…
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Bloodline
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≻: BloodlineI don’t know if we have ever had a mother and daughter relationship where I could be myself and not…
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Single Mother’s
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≻: Single Mother’s(I have no idea what it’s like to be a single mom, but I feel like they need recognition for…
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Build In Fighter
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≻: Build In FighterLearning who we are as a person doesn’t give others the right to define who We should be. Strength doesn’t…
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Everyone has a voice
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≻: Everyone has a voiceI’m a voice in this world. As a voice in this world, I have the right to stand up for…
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Damn
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≻: DamnDamn, I am 38 years old, and I am not usually the one that handles it that this damn wheelchair…
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Fly By
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≻: Fly ByAnytime I have time to look back on things that happen in my life, I feel like I did not…
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Hate On Me
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≻: Hate On MeJudge me when you have become a god.Judge me when you have walked a mile in my shoes.Judge me when…
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Disabled on the Street
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≻: Disabled on the StreetDisabled people are human beings & as human beings, we have earned the same or little more rights than people…
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Failing System
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≻: Failing SystemI’m living on a system that is failing me every single day that goes by.By telling me that as much…
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Untimely
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≻: UntimelyHow does she stop being a burden to others? I don’t want to be a burden, and I don’t even…
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The Grip Is Tight
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≻: The Grip Is TightI live in a place where everything gets done for me from the time I open my eyes until I…
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Determination
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≻: DeterminationSomeone asked me am I completely comfortable with who I am? Honestly, I always find myself saying yes because I…
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I rolled in my wheelchair
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≻: I rolled in my wheelchairTo understand how someone lives, you have to live in their shoes before passing judgment on their lives.Everyone thinks that…
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Reliving
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≻: RelivingI saw what I wanted to see.I felt things that I never thought I could feel again.The best feeling I…
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Resurface
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≻: ResurfaceShe prayed for many years for the ability to make peace with a part of her life.She felt that she…
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No guarantees
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≻: No guaranteesI want to love.I want to make sure that you will be there to catch me if I fall in…
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Temporary
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≻: TemporaryTemporary people always find a way to teach you long-term lessons. Temporary people are not meant to be long-term people,…
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Valentine’s Day
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≻: Valentine’s DayValentine’s Day is the date of showing love to that special someone in your life. No one should need a…
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A Far
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≻: A FarI loved as hard as I could.I also enjoy every moment for what it was, not for what I tried…
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Open Heart
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≻: Open HeartInvisible unheard unseen unwanted unneeded Unloved These are all the feelings that I feel anytime I feel ignored by anyone…
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Testing Love
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≻: Testing LoveShe Will never know what real love is until she is willing to test it.Testing love by arguing and knowing…
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Love
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≻: LoveI love hard.I love fearless.I love with strength.I love with faithfulness.I love knowing that love can conquerors all as long…
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Conflicted
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≻: ConflictedMy heart hurts always, and the sad part is no one realizes it. I want to stop mistreating. But I…
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The Gift
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≻: The GiftThe most fantastic part of any woman is how she can use her body to bring new life into this…
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Only God Knows
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≻: Only God KnowsCan we start over? If we do start over, how do we even know where to begin. Those questions can…
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Trial & Error
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≻: Trial & ErrorI’ve been going through some changes in myself; a wrong decision has me questioning myself, but I don’t want anybody…
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Dear Self
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≻: Dear SelfShe wants to speak for herself through my own words, but no real clue how to do so because she…
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What is it going to do for me?
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≻: What is it going to do for me?When are others going to think of me?I have always talked a great game about how I’m a grown-ass woman…
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Unhappiness
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≻: UnhappinessShe understands happiness & love don’t come from a man but her loving herself first. She also understands that she…
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Just Me
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≻: Just MeHi, my name is Erika M. SantanaMy brother & I were born on 09/04/81 Besides being the youngest of four…
The Becoming Of Ms. Butterfly Genesis 