The Becoming Of Ms. Butterfly Genesis
Real life. Real growth. Real becoming
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The Space Between Care and Distance
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≻: The Space Between Care and DistanceThere are moments in the process of becoming when clarity doesn’t come from what is said, but from what is…
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The Quiet Work of Becoming
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≻: The Quiet Work of BecomingThere is a kind of work that happens in life that no one sees. It doesn’t happen in public. It…
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When Connection Returns but You Refuse to Lose YourseLf
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≻: When Connection Returns but You Refuse to Lose YourseLfThere is something strange that happens when someone from your past walks back into your life. Not the dramatic kind…
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Becoming Whole Before Letting Anyone In
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≻: Becoming Whole Before Letting Anyone InThis morning I had a conversation that made me pause and reflect on how much I’ve changed over the past…
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The Quiet After Telling the Truth
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≻: The Quiet After Telling the TruthThere are moments in life when you finally say something out loud that you have carried inside for years. Not…
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The Butterfly Who Chose Herself
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≻: The Butterfly Who Chose HerselfThere’s something I want to say out loud, even if the world doesn’t need to know every detail of it.…
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Becoming in Real Time
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≻: Becoming in Real TimeAny time I choose to write, it’s because my body is going through something — and I decide to share…
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We Need to Learn How to Talk
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≻: We Need to Learn How to TalkWe need to learn how to have conversations. We need to learn how to ask for help. Some of us…
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I Didn’t Fall Apart — My Body Remembered
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≻: I Didn’t Fall Apart — My Body RememberedContent note: This piece reflects on emotional triggers, family estrangement, and the body’s response to past trauma. Please read at…
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A Country That Promises Freedom, Yet Punishes Voices Like Mine
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≻: A Country That Promises Freedom, Yet Punishes Voices Like MineI don’t usually talk about politics. Honestly, once you put people in power, they stop caring about the people who…
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Three Days
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≻: Three DaysWe are three days awayfrom entering 2026. I don’t want promises,not resolutions,not the weight of another yearpressing against my chest.…
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Strength & Longing
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≻: Strength & LongingI am so proud of myself for having the strength to sit in my chair and write this without tears.…
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Change Me
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≻: Change MeTo those I’ve hurt while I was hurting, I’ve been writing letters lately—first to myself. An apology. Then a forgiveness.…
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Monday
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≻: MondayHere we go.Starting another week off trying not to drag my feet—because I know I’ve got the rest of the…
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Peace looks like me
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≻: Peace looks like meI wish you could see me now.Not because I need you to, but because I finally can.I’m in the most…
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I finally see it
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≻: I finally see itI finally see what you were trying to show me all those years ago. That I needed to grow—not louder,…
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Thank you for leaving
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≻: Thank you for leavingThough you’ll never see this, I’m glad to tell you I’m succeeding. Not in the way you might have imagined:…
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Dear Future Me,
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≻: Dear Future Me,I hope you’re reading this with your head held high and your wings stretched wide. I hope the colors of…
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You would’ve been 95 today.
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≻: You would’ve been 95 today.If you had stayed—If you had lingered a little longeramong the ones who still speak your namelike a prayer wrapped…
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Dear You,
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≻: Dear You,I don’t know where to begin, but I must say something.Something is better than nothing.And this—this is everything I’ve been…
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🧠 Mind Over Matter
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≻: 🧠 Mind Over MatterMy mind is a fortress, steel and flame,Stronger than sinew, untouched by pain.It holds me up when I want to…
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Between Knowing and Feeling”
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≻: Between Knowing and Feeling”My mind, like a compass,has charted the map of survival—a terrain of letting go,where love is lighter than loss,And freedom…
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Unable
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≻: UnableLabels cling like paper tags,defining jars and jam, and names—But not the fire within our hearts,nor the way our spirits…
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FareWell
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≻: FareWellIt’s like every conversation is this delicate dance where two rhythms meet—or sometimes, sadly, they don’t. You’ve both agreed on…
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Battle
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≻: BattleI was born into battle a world that tested me, a love that constrained me, but never a force strong…
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Rewritten Pages
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≻: Rewritten PagesI open the tattered book of yesterday,Where familiar faces haunt every line—A script of worn-out verses, repeated, unchanged. Yet here…
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The Outside Looking In
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≻: The Outside Looking InI speak aloud,and the world echoes back—a reflection I never sawuntil now. I was always here,beneath the layers they painted…
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The Silence Between Us
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≻: The Silence Between UsThe Silence Between Us I know what I should’ve, could’ve done,but didn’t—not from lack of wanting,but from believing you should’ve…
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It Should Have Been Me
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≻: It Should Have Been MeIt Should Have Been Me I watch you step into your afterlife,the happiness we once dreamed of in tandem.And I…
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Worthy of Me
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≻: Worthy of MeI should not let another’s whispercommand the tides within my heart.Yet one breath—just one—And I am weightless,adrift in longing,forgetting that…
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Blue Blooded Silence
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≻: Blue Blooded SilenceWhat else is left to saywhen the heart has screamed itself hoarse,when its walls have cracked wide openso someone—anyone—could seethe…
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I Want
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≻: I WantI want my heart to still,to silence the echo of your name.I want my ribs to unburdenthe weight of love…
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Dear Beloved,
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≻: Dear Beloved,Though I cannot hear your voice or feel your embrace, my heart reaches out to you with every word I…
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≻: untitled post 6334I opened a chapter of my life,I thought she might read my words,Understand my heart,Comprehend the weight of where I…
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Motherhood Beyond Birth
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≻: Motherhood Beyond BirthSociety speaks of mothers as those who give birth—But truth sways softly in its quiet worth.To nurture, to guide, to…
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Rise Again
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≻: Rise AgainYesterday casts its shadow long,A melody, a distant song.Today, we try, we bend, we mold,Yet yesterday’s grip feels firm and…
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Reflection On Love & Inner Peace
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≻: Reflection On Love & Inner PeaceI tinted his heart with shades of regret,Lost in the echoes of words unsaid.It is more straightforward to break than…
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SELF commitment
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≻: SELF commitmentIt’s been a while since I put pen to paper, so here goes nothing. 2024 is leaving, and we’re welcoming…
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progress
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≻: progressI had to make 1,000,001 mistakes to finally understand how strong I am and how worthy I am of who…
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Venting
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≻: VentingVenting Those who have followed me know I am a disabled blogger, and As a disabled blogger, I share my…
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Stupid Heart
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≻: Stupid HeartDo you think following your heart makes you stupid? I’m afraid I have to disagree. Letting your heart lead shows you’re willing to embrace life’s uncertainties and to feel deeply even when there’s no guarantee. Sure, it’s left you with questions and maybe some hurt, but isn’t that part of being authentically human? Maybe the real issue isn’t that your heart is too open but that others haven’t met you with the same sincerity. What would it look like to protect your heart without closing it off entirly? Ms. Butterfly Genesis
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LOVE LANGUAGE.
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≻: LOVE LANGUAGE.MY DESIRE TO SCREAM I PROMISE TO ANYONE WHO IS CRAZY ENOUGH TO READ THIS THAT MY DESIRE TO SCREAM…
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43 Coming Soon
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≻: 43 Coming SoonI’m blessed that I am going to be blessed to see 43. It’s a blessing because I was not supposed…
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I am
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≻: I amI am expecting too much from him.I am expecting too little from him.I am not expecting anything from you because…
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Waiting
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Internal
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≻: InternalPerfection is an elusive ideal, and real life is beautifully imperfect. Struggling with mental well-being is a common human experience,…
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Home
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Conflict
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≻: ConflictMs. Butterfly Genesis
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Peace Of Light
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≻: Peace Of LightIn the silence of our shared dreams,Where time stands still, or so it seems.Our forever was cut short too soon,Underneath…
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Happy 44th Heavenly Birthday
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≻: Happy 44th Heavenly Birthday Your birthday came and went, and I couldn’t even focus on writing you a simple post like I usually do on your birthday and…
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HANDS
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≻: HANDSHands Soft touch. Desire excitement. Chills down and up my spine, anticipating his next moves. Safety security that’s what his…
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Preparing
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≻: PreparingHow do we ever prepare ourselves to say goodbye? Are we ever to say goodbye to anyone we care about?…
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Being Me
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≻: Being MeFor a long time, I thought that lying was the right thing to do, but self-consciously, I knew it was the wrong…
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Won’t let go
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≻: Won’t let goI thought we were unbreakable because nothing could make it through steel.Whenever I think about us, I think of steel…
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Two heart beat that became one
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≻: Two heart beat that became oneI miss and love you more than anything.You should be so proud of me. I finally was able to tell…
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Chess
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≻: ChessI love who I am with him.I hate who I am without him, but I am better off knowing that…
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42nd Birthday (Blessing)
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≻: 42nd Birthday (Blessing)What can I say? We made it 42 years together and many more to come; in our case, we had…
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Girl
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≻: GirlGIRL, WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF?MY RESPONSE IS SIMPLY WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU I’M IN LOVE WITH HIM.YOU…
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Challenges
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≻: ChallengesClose one door before opening another door. I am trapped in a doorway I have tried to close for many…
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Pride
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≻: PrideIt’s a shame that it’s 2023, and we’re still fighting for equality to love who we want, not who society…
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Start
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≻: StartClose one door before opening another door. I am trapped in a doorway I have tried to close for many…
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Birthdays
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≻: BirthdaysBirthdays are a celebration of life and the person accomplishes, whether here or not.Birth is a true gift from god…
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Every day is the day of love
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≻: Every day is the day of loveValentine’s day is considered a special day because that is the day that you spend with someone extraordinary. So why…
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My Person
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≻: My PersonThere is so much bullshit going on in the world beyond my heart.But I seriously can not help and feel…
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Under
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≻: UnderI don’t want to be stupid.For you to be successful, I have to have the strength to the door of…
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Against wanting
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≻: Against wantingTo stop loving him, I need to use my heartlessness and allow my mind to take over. Even with all…
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Home
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≻: HomeHome is comfy.`Home is safety.Home is love.Home understands that no matter how badly I could mess up, those arms will…
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SHOULD PEOPLE BE ABLE TO MAKE THEIR OWN RULES?
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≻: SHOULD PEOPLE BE ABLE TO MAKE THEIR OWN RULES?THE OLD SAYING HAS ALWAYS BEEN IT’S NEVER TOO LATE TO DO ANYTHING WE WANT TO DO IN LIFE AS…
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Self-Caring
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≻: Self-CaringAs women, we are taught to be givers.Teachers of life.As women, we have the most satisfying job: the ability to…
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HIM
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≻: HIMA day full of anticipation.Nervous.Excitement but confusion because we need to think of anyone or anything else but the moment…
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You
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≻: YouTrace of me all over you is what I dream of & desire. Anytime I find myself with you, I…
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Souls
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≻: SoulsWe should never force pieces to fall into place.Pieces should fall into place naturally without someone forcing it.If we try…
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Choices
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≻: ChoicesMy heart is weighty simply because, as women, we take our abilities to have children for granted. The main reason…
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Happy Mother’s Day
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≻: Happy Mother’s DayI’m not speaking from a mother’s perspective but a daughter’s perspective; why do mothers only deserve one day to be…
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The First Man
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≻: The First ManThe first healthy relationship daughters must establish is with their fathers. Unfortunately, many fathers don’t understand the impact they create…
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The Heartbeat
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≻: The HeartbeatThe heartbeat inside me made me realize you were more accurate than anything else. You had no name, but I…
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Knife
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≻: KnifeDon’t keep stabbing me with your words. I stab myself every day with the reminder of not having you a…
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Loop Off
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≻: Loop OffI find myself in the place where I’m asking myself where, when, and how I could end up here again.…
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Guilt Trip
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≻: Guilt TripFamily is supposed to mean unity but unity means different things to different families. My family is like a popularity…
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Useless
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≻: UselessI am not going to play the blame for the way I feel about the way I think of myself…
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Reflection Time
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≻: Reflection TimeI have so many people in my life.I had hurt those who genuinely tried loving me for me when I…
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One Whole
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≻: One WholeWhen we get into relationships as women, we would love to believe that love should be enough to survive, and…
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Forever
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≻: ForeverI don’t want to see you. I don’t wish you harm. I thought we were going to be forever because…
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Instrument
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≻: InstrumentEveryone is a voice. Everyone has a voice. Everyone has the right to use their voice, but people must understand…
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Merry Christamas
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≻: Merry ChristamasChristmas, I believe, has been very much commercialized. I also think that everyone has lost the true meaning of Christmas.…
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Myself Conversation
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≻: Myself ConversationI need to have this conversation because if I don’t, I will continue to feel like I’m losing my mind.…
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Educated
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≻: EducatedTeachable moments happen every day, and it’s up to us if we accept them at teachable moments in our lives.…
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won’t
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≻: won’tIt’s not that I can’t stop speaking to him. It’s more about how I feel when I don’t talk to…
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Breathe
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≻: BreatheI breathe to stay alive.Every breath I take comes with unbearable pain, not only because my body is breaking down…
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The One
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≻: The OneI need to love myself a little bit more. But, I can only do that by realizing that I need…
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My love lettler
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≻: My love lettlerI have no clue why I decided on 11/16/21 to write him a love letter, but I am guessing there…
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Forever
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≻: ForeverNow that I no longer have you, I wish I could have used my time the right way.At this point,…
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Million
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≻: MillionMy heart is in a million pieces, but it’s no one else fault but my own.I need to detach my…
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In Love
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≻: In LoveI’ve always been the first to apologize for how my heart feels. But there’s nothing to apologize for this time…
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≻: untitled post 3996If I were his priority, I would be his first thought in the morning his last view at night. If…
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Bipolar
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≻: BipolarCall me bipolar because my emotions have a way of going up and down, or sometimes I find ways of…
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I should be
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≻: I should beI should not be just an option.I should be that first choice.I should be your first thought in the morning.I…
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Becoming Myself
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≻: Becoming MyselfIs knowing who I am.I am not caring what anybody thinks about me because I refuse to live for anyone…
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Choosing myself
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≻: Choosing myselfI choose myself.If I don’t have the strength to choose myself, how else can I expect anyone to choose me?…
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Therapy
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≻: TherapyBrokenDamagedI am left questioning my purpose or why I decided to share my thoughts with the world.I feel like I…
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The last I love you
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≻: The last I love youA mother is the real backbone of the family. When anyone loses a mother, it’s like losing a nurturing teacher,…
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Finally Goodbye
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≻: Finally GoodbyeNo one should be able to say goodbye because goodbye is such a final word.Everyone who once loved her was…
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Extend
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≻: ExtendShe extends herself with kindness.She extends herself with love.She extends herself by being that backbone none ever is to him.How…
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Painting
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≻: PaintingNo one ever has to agree on how I feel, but the way I feel is like I am just…
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Sharing Myself
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≻: Sharing MyselfThings have gotten so far to come back. I wish I could share my feelings with the world to understand…
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International struggles
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≻: International strugglesTrigger words for me are:You are starting to feel heavy.You are fat.You need to talk to someone who can help…
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M.I.A.
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≻: M.I.A.I’m smiling because I refuse to show anyone my sadness to anyone.I smile because I’m tired of crying.I smile when…
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Expectations
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≻: ExpectationsHe was the one person that gave her world because that’s what she meant to him.So he poured everything he…
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Unlike
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≻: UnlikeBEING HUMAN DOES NOT MEAN WE SHOULD ALL LOOK ALIKE. BEING HUMAN DOESN’T MEAN; WE SHOULD NOT ALL BE THE…
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Alone
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≻: AloneI’m alone in more than one.I’m alone in the sense that I feel crazy trapped in my feels.Anytime I open…
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Painful
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≻: PainfulBesides all the pain that my heart is feeling, I feel more alone with each day that keeps passing me…
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Overdose
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≻: OverdoseI finally did to myself; my life has ended; I’ve overdosed. No, not on coke, crack, or even ecstasy. I…
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Eleven years ago
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≻: Eleven years agoCleaning leads us to find things that we probably never thought of finding until I found myself cleaning. It took…
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UNSPOKEN
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≻: UNSPOKENI don’t mind when people find themselves talking about me and the kind of person I am because people don’t…
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Blackjack
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≻: BlackjackShe played into his hands like a game of blackjack. She was desperate to know if he would not be…
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Thirteen years ago
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≻: Thirteen years agoThirteen years later, still running through hoops and chains just to be seen acknowledge by someone who has no idea…
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Finalizing
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≻: Finalizing7 PM in my bed watching a movie million and one thought running through my head.I can’t make sense of…
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Home
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≻: HomeAnytime things get tough, she finds herself contemplating when things were pretty not smooth but smooth enough to make her…
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Lifetime
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≻: LifetimeA lifetime is simple forever.A lifetime is a chance to grow together. Also, understand that it’s okay to be our…
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Close the door
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≻: Close the doorClose the door before allowing another door to open. Closing the door on something like your past makes sure that…
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Taught Me
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≻: Taught MeAnytime a relationship comes to an end, it’s difficult for both parties involved. When both parties understand everything they have…
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Cutting
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≻: CuttingWhy keeping cutting myself? If all I do is cover my body with unnecessary scars, relieve the pain running through…
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Under conditional love
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≻: Under conditional loveSaying that she doesn’t care about me would be very unfair because I have seen with my own eyes what…
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Bloodline
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≻: BloodlineI don’t know if we have ever had a mother and daughter relationship where I could be myself and not…
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Makeover
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≻: MakeoverGiving my room a makeover isn’t going to help me emotionally. Yeah, my room would look beautiful because it does…
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Single Mother’s
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≻: Single Mother’s(I have no idea what it’s like to be a single mom, but I feel like they need recognition for…
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Letting Go
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≻: Letting GoI am not a parent, but I am struggling to let go because I am the baby of my family,…
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Unselfish Loved
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≻: Unselfish LovedShe held this little human being in her belly, giving them a chance. She held this tiny human in her…
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Damn
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≻: DamnDamn, I am 38 years old, and I am not usually the one that handles it that this damn wheelchair…
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Fly By
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≻: Fly ByAnytime I have time to look back on things that happen in my life, I feel like I did not…
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A Child
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≻: A ChildI’m a child of no gender.I’m a child of no color.I’m a child who was taught to love everyone.I’m a…
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The race of life
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≻: The race of lifeI am running one of the craziest races against myself because I want to know how far I can go…
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Uniquely
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≻: UniquelyI was born this way.Just because I look different does not mean anyone has the right to bully me.I believe…
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Reliving
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≻: RelivingI saw what I wanted to see.I felt things that I never thought I could feel again.The best feeling I…
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Heart Giveway
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≻: Heart GivewaySomeone, please give her the cure for love.She is desperate to find a cure to love because if she doesn’t…
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Resurface
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≻: ResurfaceShe prayed for many years for the ability to make peace with a part of her life.She felt that she…
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No guarantees
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≻: No guaranteesI want to love.I want to make sure that you will be there to catch me if I fall in…
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The Cover-up
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≻: The Cover-upLove is patient.Love is understanding.Love is growing together and becoming one.Love is fighting and knowing when it’s time to let…
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inter-able relationship
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≻: inter-able relationshipInter-able relationships are not something people discuss because it’s strange for many to see a disabled person with a non-disabled…
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Unattractive
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≻: UnattractiveLet me start by saying I’m not a relationship expert, but I was having a conversation with one of my…
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Love
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≻: LoveI wish I could run, but where would I hide.I would love to hide from my heart because my heart…
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Valentine’s Day
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≻: Valentine’s DayValentine’s Day is the date of showing love to that special someone in your life. No one should need a…
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Blind
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≻: BlindBlind no more. I‘m no longer using my heart to see anyone for who they are and their real purpose…
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Testing Love
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≻: Testing LoveShe Will never know what real love is until she is willing to test it.Testing love by arguing and knowing…
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Love
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≻: LoveI love hard.I love fearless.I love with strength.I love with faithfulness.I love knowing that love can conquerors all as long…
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Conflicted
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≻: ConflictedMy heart hurts always, and the sad part is no one realizes it. I want to stop mistreating. But I…
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The Gift
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≻: The GiftThe most fantastic part of any woman is how she can use her body to bring new life into this…
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Mommy & Daddy
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≻: Mommy & DaddyDaddy and I always think about who you would’ve been and who you would’ve become. As long as I have…
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The Heartbeat
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≻: The HeartbeatThe heartbeat was a gift from God himself. The heartbeat that would change my life because that’s when I understood…
The Becoming Of Ms. Butterfly Genesis 