I can’t say I know you. You can’t say you know me either, but I pray that with this new journey we are about to take part in, I hope our hearts and souls can and will become one as time goes on.
The journey of discovering who we are as married will differ from the people we were as a dating couple.
The most exciting part of becoming husband and wife, he and I can’t run away from each other because it feels like it’s the easiest thing to do.
We can’t and won’t run away from each other because marriage is one of the most significant commitments that we made to each other, and we owe each other to see it through. Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴
Thirteen years later, still running through hoops and chains just to be seen acknowledge by someone who has no idea what the other person has been through since Departure from each other. Feeling the need to prove anything to anyone but still Finding little ways to justify or prove the difference between whom you were back then and who you are today. The woman she was 13 years ago is not the woman she is today. The old virgin of herself was taken back by love; she saw through his eyes, not her own. Now she knows or understands that no woman should become a prisoner of love; loving someone is a part of everyone, but it should not be your entire being.
As she tries toshow who she is 13 years later, she struggles because the reputation of her not being any different than she was 13 years ago follows her sincerely into what she wants to turn into reality can’t.
She’s done everything she could to run away from those feelings; she’s even been in other arms hoping and praying that she could forget that one love she gave everything up. It has never happened she could bury long enough for her to feel something for other people, but that feeling of love always lived inside of her, especially for him no idea why, but it does. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
How does she go from feeling like his wife to feeling like the other women?
When it comes to staying on top of his business, she is his wife that only a wife should know about her husband.
She also finds herself becoming his slutwhen he remembers having a free pussy that he can play with when they felt like it or when other pussies would turn him down just because he was not worthy.
When it comes to pleasing him, she holds her own, but the only difference is that the same fire they once shared in that bedroom is now dying in the rest of the relationship. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
Anytime things get tough, she finds herself contemplating when things were pretty not smooth but smooth enough to make her feel like she was at home. She finally was able to say something that she hasn’t been able to communicate in years, and that was the fact that she never knew true happiness until things Disappeared, and she’s never been the same since. She wants to be that girl that loved it loved harder than anything else that she ever did in her life. She contributes to where she’s at today, and she acknowledges it. Still, it’s not enough to Acknowledge her wrongdoings when the other damage part can’t see I can’t recognize that she is taking full responsibility for contributing to her not feeling like herself or feeling safe. She wants to go home, but she knows she doesn’t deserve to go home because once there’s a crack in the foundation of what you try to build, there’s no rebuilding; this is moving forward.
No one should want to rebuild on a broken foundation; everything built on should be brand new, so we know and understand that everything we are about to put on this foundation can over stand all the weight we are trying to place on this new foundation.
Home is safe. Home is laughter. Home is Love. Home isn’t about being judged. Home should have been wherever he was because he held her heart. Home takes time to build it doesn’t happen overnight home takes time to make it doesn’t happen overnight, so be patient and work your most complex, so neither one misses out on something significant like a beautiful home within each other. So be patient and work your hardest so neither one misses out on something meaningful like a beautiful home within each other.
A lifetime is simple forever. A lifetime is a chance to grow together. Also, understand that it’s okay to be our person outside of our forever. Lifetime should be something that no other human being besides God can pull apart. Lifetime is the commitment that someone should make only in their lives because they know they found the one. Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴
When building relationships, there are steps to follow: Such as let’s start as friends. Let’s be transparent as we can be. I want to know that I’m looking at my best friend. Knowing that the person, I’m sharing a body with respect enough to understand there is more than sex that holds a relationship together. Communication Trust Honesty Growth as a couple and individual people, so the two parties involved can become a more robust unit. Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴
It hurts to be the bigger person, but it needs to be done, especially if I want his friendship. Friendship is better than not having anything at all. Being just friends is a new role for everyone in this Playing field, but I know we can make it happen if we both want it. As a couple, we tried to make things work, but it just didn’t happen, so now we are in two different places in our lives. We know, The next best thing is to be each other’s cheerleaders and watch each other succeed career-wise and in the love department because everyone deserves it. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
Getting things on track is letting go of the old stuff and building on new chapters.
Those chapters have to include being each other’s best friends and understanding that we both came in with not so innocent past before our first hello.
I know that if I’m not ashamed of where and who I have been with, I should have no problem sharing my history with someone who will be a part of my life.
I could never be ashamed of my past because my past has made me & has also helped me grow into the person I’m today.
I have never been the type to expose myself because my past is just that of my past.
Why should my past play a part in my future?
My future is being with someone who could be my best friend.
My future is being able to grow old with someone.
My future is about not letting outsiders’ influencers influence what our love should be.
My past marks my future should have been not by an outsider. But by the one who states to love me. Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴
Anytime a relationship comes to an end, it’s difficult for both parties involved.
When both parties understand everything they have put in the relationship, it hasn’t been enough to keep them happy What has been for so many years?
That’s why I can’t help but have a confused look on my face as I take pen to paper.
I am confused because this hasn’t been any relationship for me; this has been life-saving.
How can I say goodbye to someone who has saved me from myself?
Someone who has put aside their life activities to show me I have more to offer the world than I credit for.
So with all that said, I decided to open up my mouth and share my feelings, hoping it would open the conversation lines.
Communication is a true blessing to those who believe in it.
A relationship is an opportunity for people to get to know each other as friends first.
Friendship allows people to discover the little things that others will never know.
A relationship is knowing and understand that both parties have a passed & before anyone can move into something new that gave as to stay just that a passed.
Old bags can drag down the best relationships in the world.
A relationship is all about building together and discovering the possibilities of one day being one.
A relationship is also understanding there is no such thing as being perfect.
Being perfect is not and something we should not strive to be. But, being who we are on a day-to-day basis?
A relationship is also knowing each other weaknesses and strengths. Not playing on those emotions is an essential part of any good relationship.
A relationship should never be about losing oneself but gaining a better understanding that someone should not make you who you are but add to the person we know you are.
A relationship is not about changing people; it’s about accepting them for who they are. If we have to change who we are or our partners, then what’s the point. A relationship is the work of two people, not just one.
I’m not trying to question his motives, but I can’t help myself. Doubting myself in and doubting someone who wanted me has always been easy. The most challenging part of getting close to someone is not feeling like someone’s experiments or a charity case. I’ve been through such difficult times in my life; that’s why everyone around me is questionable, including myself, because I’m not sure if they accept me for me or not. So secretly, I’m not sure if I allow myself or stop looking at myself like in experiments because that’s how everyone has ever treated me. I want to allow him into my life without the fear of feeling like it will blow up in my face again. I know better than to judge people because people are always judging me, but it’s tough not to sit back and think of all the negative things that have to me. I know it’s easier to fear the unknown than to worry about what she knows. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
THE GREAT THING ABOUT LOVING ONESELF IS ACCEPTING ALL THE GREAT THINGS & ALL NOT GREAT THINGS ABOUT WHO SOMEONE ELSE IS. LOVING ME IS UNDERSTANDING THAT I WAS BORN TO BE A BITCH. LOVING ME IS UNDERSTANDING THAT I LIVE IN MY PRINCESS WORLD WITH DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES. LOVING ME IS UNDERSTANDING THAT I HAVE A NASTY HABIT OF SPEAKING WITHOUT THINKING BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I AM ALWAYS GOING TO BE RIGHT. LOVING ME IS KNOWING I’M ALWAYS GOING TO DO WHAT MY HEART WANTS NO MATTER WHO AGREES OR WHO DISAGREES &, THE REASON I FEEL THIS WAY IS BECAUSE MY DISABILITY HAS SO MUCH CONTROL OVER MY BODY.
I HATE WHEN PEOPLE FEEL LIKE THEY SHOULD DICTATE HOW I’M GOING TO MOVE THROUGHOUT THE REST OF MY LIFE.
LOVING ME IS UNDERSTANDING I LOVE HARD BECAUSE I FALL IN LOVE WITH THE IDEA OF BEING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE.
LOVING ME IS UNDERSTANDING. LOVING ME IS NEVER GOING TO BE EASY.
LOVING ME IS UNDERSTANDING THAT THOSE WALLS THAT I HAVE BUILT THROUGHOUT THE YEARS MUST COME DOWN SLOWLY WITH LOVE PATIENCE.
LOVING ME IS NOT TRYING TO CHANGE WHO I AM AS A PERSON. BUT TO ADD TO THE PERSON, I AM.
LOVING ME IS KNOW I’M FEAR TO FAIL AT THOSE THINGS THAT PEOPLE TELLING I AM GOOD AT, SUCH AS MY WRITING SKILLS, LOVING SOMEONE & HAVING THEM LOVE ME RIGHT BACK.
THE BIGGEST THING I FEAR OF FAILING AT IS FAILING MYSELF BY PUTTING SOMEONE ELSE NEEDS & WANTS BEFORE MY OWN.
THE BEST THING I HAVE LEARNED ABOUT LOVING MYSELF REALIZES WHEN LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH FOR ME.
Saying that she doesn’t care about me would be very unfair because I have seen with my own eyes what she has given up for me.
I have to be honest with myself and her. She has made me feel like I can’t get anything done for myself if she is not by my side.
That’s far from the truth because I believe in myself like I would love for her to believe in me.
For once, I don’t want her to see my chair or my physical limitations; I need her to see me as a person first.
As a person, I know right from wrong, and I also know that life is not easy for anyone to live, but it’s extra challenging because of my disability.
I understand that I am not considered typical for many people out in the real world. & I shouldn’t want my independence from my family, but I guess what I have struggled with most in life is not being seen or heard by the person who has had the strength to bring me into this crazy world.
I have always accepted the unexpected from strangers, but my mom is strict because I have seen her push my other siblings to want a better life.
As much as my disability plays such a big part in my day-to-day life, I would one day look behind me & see her push me to succeed in my own life & become that independent woman striving to be.
My limitations need to stop being seen as a life sentence and my motivation to show myself that anything is possible as long as I believe in who I am.
So emotionally, and I can’t help but think of you today because today was the day you made your debut into the world.
You came into my life much later, and you were an absolute blessing because you gave me a new way to look at the world. After all, I was able to see the world through those innocent eyes of yours.
I can honestly say that was the most relaxed experience ever because you didn’t see the bad in anyone, and you trusted everyone around you.
The innocence and colossal heart you hold within yourself made falling in love with you that much easier.
I’m so glad that you & your beautiful mom gave me the chance to be a part of your life for as long as you and she did. But, I don’t want to speak about sad things.
Today is a day of celebration of life, and you become a young man. I have many wishes for you.
The first wish is very obvious. I wish that God continues to bless you with excellent health and more love than you can handle.
My second wish for you is that you know how much everyone you have ever contacted loves you because even though there’s a distance between us, I still love you like crazy.
My third wish is that everything you wish for yourself comes true because you are one of the most deserving human beings, but I know in the world.
So as you blow out your candles, the third wish is that everything you wish for yourself comes true because you are one of the most deserving human beings, but I know in the world.
So as the blog you, I hope and pray that all your wishes come true today and tomorrow, and forever. I hope and pray that all your wishes come true today and tomorrow and forever.
She is a little girl that only knows a mother’s love.
She has no clue what a father’s love should be because there is no imprint of what a father is.
As a young lady, she begins to look for love to fill that space that only a father can supply for a daughter.
I never understood that a father is supposed to be protected, not an abuser.
She begins to find herself in situations that make her believe that as long as her body is cover in black & blue, that means that she is loved.
Fatherless Daughters
Black & Blue has never been a sign of love.
The sign of love is & should always be red.
The only way our fatherless daughters are ever going to learn about true love is by learning self-love; self-love respects one’s body as a temple.
Also, understanding that giving our bodies away doesn’t always mean love.
Fathers are the first relationships we have as little girls & young women we have & use those relationships to help us choose someone like our fathers.
Stop making us fatherless daughters & become the man that we should dream of.
When a man has their first daughters, they learn a different language of love. Daughters know how to melt any man’s heart. At least that’s what we are supposed to do to our daddy’s heart. My situation was different; my father was around for a while, at least physically, but he was like a ghostemotionally. Until he disappeared for good, I had no actual role model of a man to treat women. Every little girl wants to be daddy’s little girl. To feel protected by her daddy as well as love by her daddy. All I got was my daddy back, wondering if he would turn around and face me for the last time. Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴
Humble Humility Gratitude Unconditional Love Unselfish putting my needs before her own. Having the feeling like superwoman, even if that means dragging herself to care for me when I understand that she should not be caring for me anymore, I should be making sure that she is being taken care of as the queen that she is. I know that she has always tried to show me that no matter what, she would always be my #1, but I never truly understood that until our relationship of her being my caregiver completely changed.
We always struggled to have that mother-daughter relationship. I have always felt like my mom has never seen me as me. My mother instead continues to see me as her disabled daughter. She is on this earth to protect. So I struggled to understand that she is a mom who wants more for her offspring than she could have, had for herself as a mom.
She was not planned but not unwanted, just a real surprise from God itself.
Even though she never developed into her little person, I was lucky enough to feel her heartbeat next to mine.
So we were bonded way before you became my little girl angel.
As my first & only baby girl, I have so much to say to you, and I have to let you know that you would have been named after the person I admire the most, and that person is your grandmother.
My little angel of love.
My heartbeat will always be with yours, even though many people did not understand my decision to keep you.
All I understood was that a human life needed me & I needed her in my life.
God knows why things happen and why he chooses not to keep you with me.
Even though every single part of me is in my sweet little angel girl, the only thing that gives me comfort is understand that no matter I am still your mom.
(I have no idea what it’s like to be a single mom, but I feel like they need recognition for all their hard work and sacrifice.)
A mother’s job begins when she decides that she is ready to share her life with another human being grown inside of her—not knowing that they will be growing together and fighting together.
It’s effortless to make a baby; the difficult part is knowing that you’re in this alone because the person you decided to have a child with doesn’t feel the need to share the responsibilities with you.
The job of a single mother never ends. Being the mother and father is the most challenging job because we must play both roles simultaneously. We can’t force men to become fathers if they don’t want to and if they can’t realize that the gifts that God has given them are the best gift they can ever receive from God. That’s why, as women, we all have to be careful of who we choose to share ourselves with and want to become parents with because the kids are the ones that suffer.
As single mothers, we have to become superwomen. After all, we don’t have time to break or think about anything else but need and then one because we have to make up for what they’re losing by not having a male figure in their lives.
This last part is for the men who believe that making a baby makes them a father. I hate to break it to you just because you can make a baby does not make you a man; what makes a man is the one that sticks around to watch his children grow up and become something better than their fathers.
That’s why I believe God gave the gift of bearing children to women because he gave us the strength and the power in the knowledge to become mothers and fathers.
Learning who we are as a person doesn’t give others the right to define who We should be.
Strength doesn’t always mean physical strength; power is also understanding, or coming to terms with enough is enough.
If we can’t please ourselves in all areas of our lives, why would we please others in all possible ways?
The most important part of this piece for anyone reading this is it doesn’t matter what anyone might think of you as a person. Make sure you put yourself first as a person because you question yourself as a human. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
As a voice in this world, I have the right to stand up for wrongful things.
If I silence myself or allow myself to be quiet, anyone will fall into being one of those who are afraid to stand up for anything.
I’m a voice in this world and being a voice. I have every right to speak my words. To make sure that words make others think or at least attempt to make some change.
These are the times we need to use our voice because we can’t keep falling for anything. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
She held this little human being in her belly, giving them a chance. She held this tiny human in her stomach, allowing them to bond and have an opportunity to become one soul with each other. Nine months to watch and feel something growing inside of her, she is a fantastic feeling for anyone who has wanted to be a mother.
A Child is a true blessing and miracle that everyone should experience in their own time. Still, she was not ready for that experience, so as she was signing this little life away, feeling like she was signing her death sentence.
Signing those papers was definitely like signing a part of herself away. But also understood that no matter what happened from this day forward, she would never be the whole because a part of her would be missing.
Being unselfish is knowing and understanding that this little human being deserved a better life than she was ready to give this little person. Giving life to another person was an incredible feeling for her because she had the opportunity to live every moment of every second, watching this little person come in and leave simultaneously.
Life is full of choices, and she chose life for this little person that will forever be full of questions but, there is one question this little person should never have, and that’s how much this human being is loved just because she was able to be unselfish by putting their needs before her. To bound and have an opportunity to become one soul with each other.
Nine months to watch and feel something growing inside of her, she is a fantastic feeling for anyone who has wanted to be a mother.
A Child is a true blessing and miracle that everyone should experience in their own time, but truthful speaking, she was not ready for that experience, so as she was signing this little life away she, felt like she was signing her death sentence.
Signing those papers was definitely like signing a part of herself away, and she also understood that no matter what she did from this day forward, she was never going to the entire whole because a part of her was going to be missing.
Being unselfish is knowing and understanding that this little human being deserved a better life than she was ready to give this little person.
Giving life to another person was an incredible feeling for her because she had the opportunity to live every moment of every second, watching this little person come in and leave simultaneously.
Life is full of choices, and she chose life for this little person that will forever be full of questions but, there is one question this little person should never have, and that’s how much this human being is loved just because she was able to be unselfish by putting their needs before her own. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
Anytime I have time to look back on things that happen in my life, I feel like I did not get the chance to enjoy what I had because all I was doing was flying by, so there was no real-time see. Flying by is another way I deal with my feelings and thoughts simply because I pass right through my emotions and dreams because right at that moment, it feels right, but then again, I am left feeling alone and feeling empty. Flying by always seems more straightforward than sticking around and dealing with the bullshit that surrounds my life right now. Taking a stand for my life and things suitable for me. One of the things I am best known for is flying by and not being strong enough to stay and face the ugly side of me because I am a lot happier, just flying by as everyone has done in my life. Ms. Butterfly Genesis🇩🇴
I’m a child of no gender. I’m a child of no color. I’m a child who was taught to love everyone. I’m a child that was told to be who you want to be, no matter what anyone else might have to say. I’m a child of freedom of expression. I’m a child who is gay & proud of it. I’m a child with all these qualities, but the minute they discovered my sexuality, I was no longer that child. No one’s sexuality changes who they are as people. The main thing that changes people’s ignorance among themselves. Ms. Butterfly Genesis🇩🇴
I saw what I wanted to see. I felt things that I never thought I could feel again. The best feeling I have been able to feel in a long time is that school girl crush. I could smile without someone making me feel like I should not be. Texting for hours gave me a reason never to go to sleep because the moment I allowed my eyes to close, I would miss something that could be important. Worked days seem longer than ever. I could not wait to see messages that would bring butterflies to my stomach.
Even with all the beautiful things that he has to make me feel incredible unique unforgettable came a lot of resentment and many unsolved problems that always have a way of sneaking in but never sneaking back out.
I guess it’s true what people say you fight the most with the people you love, but then again, you have to know within yourself when it’s time to say goodbye to the one love you could never see yourself without me just because we are afraid to see love turn into hate.
Someone, please give her the cure for love. She is desperate to find a cure to love because if she doesn’t try and find a cure for this damn thing called love, she will die a slow death over having no remedy for love. Love can and should be a fantastic thing when people are in it for the right reasons. The only way love can become painful is to make the right choices on who they give their heart to. So the people’s defense is they don’t get to choose who they’re going to give their heart away to their heart’s do the choosing for them. Granted, verbal, we have to say yes, but if our hearts don’t tell us what to say, we wouldn’t have any way to respond. Our hearts choose what we follow because many believe that our spirit will never lead us in the wrong direction. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
She prayed for many years for the ability to make peace with a part of her life. She felt that she would never make peace with it because it was never the right time or place in her life.
When she least expected it, her prayer of making peace came true because that part of her life that she desperately needed to make peace with came looking for her instead of looking for it and trying to make peace with it herself as always.
Making peace means revisiting old wounds, Forget-given but not forgotten. As she looks for peace, other emotions that have been buried for years accidentally resurfaced. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
You better tell her that you love me. You better tell her the nights you don’t come home is because you are home with me. She needs to know that karma is slapping her in the face like it once did me. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
I want to love. I want to make sure that you will be there to catch me if I fall in love. When we take the chance to fall in love, there’s no guarantee that there will be someone there to catch you when you fall, but when you have suffered so many heartbreaks, People begin to look for some validation that they’re not alone in falling in love. Nothing in life has been guaranteed, but we have to be willing to fake until we find a way to make it. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
She wants a partner. She wants a partner that she can grow with and know that she can be herself. She wants a partner that shares the same common goal as a Couple. She wants an encouraging partner to see the best in her when she can’t see in herself. She wants a partner to love and fight with and knows that everything does not have to be perfect. What might work for others might not work for us, and that’s what partnership is all about. Ms. Butterfly Genesis🇩🇴
Love is patient. Love is understanding. Love is growing together and becoming one. Love is fighting and knowing when it’s time to let go. Love is a four-letter word that should not be used as a Band-Aid to cover up underneath the surface that abuses the word love. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
Temporary people always find a way to teach you long-term lessons.
Temporary people are not meant to be long-term people, no matter how bad we would like to make them long-term people.
Temporary people can give us what we want for the moments or make us live unforgettable moments that we may never be able to live again because those moments were meant to be lived with those temporary people.
Temporary people are like seasonal weather; they don’t stick around long enough for anyone to get comfortable or get to know them better. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
I wish I could run, but where would I hide. I would love to hide from my heart because my heart has the bad habit of playing tricks on me. I don’t want tricks because it’s difficult to see the magic in love when love has a hard time showing its true self to me to give my all to love. It’s terrifying to know the love has so much power over people, but it’s so rewarding to know that someone out there is willing to take the same adventure that you are as long as we do it fearlessly and with no doubt. Ms. Butterfly Genesis
Valentine’s Day is the date of showing love to that special someone in your life.
No one should need a day like Valentine’s Day to say I love you to someone or need such a date to show people how you feel about them.
Every Day is a chance for someone to tell that person that they love them as long as they’re here on earth; even after they leave, this earth that loved one should know that we still love them.
Don’t get mewrong; I’ve always been the type of person to be into special days like Valentine’s Day and any other holiday, even though Valentine’s Day is not a holiday.
Any day they can get me spoiled, especially Valentine’s Day. I’m all for it because that one time in the year that, as women, we feel unique and catered to by the man that loves us.
I should say I love you without having to have a special occasion like Valentine’s Day to say I love you to someone.
Even when couples go to bed mad, they should say I love you because you never know if that might be the last I love you you hear again.
The state but we’ve been living in as a nation should be able to say I love you with no hesitation because, like I just said, no one has a clue if we’re ever going to hear from our love again.
So let’s not hold onto pettiness and say I love you every chance we get.
The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly 