Tag: DONE

• Eleven Years Ago

  

  ELEVEN YEARS LATER

  OMG, I HAVE SOMETHING TO HOLD THAT MAKES OUR DIVORCE REAl

  
  MENTALLY, I HAVE ALWAYS HAD AN UNDERSTANDING I HAVE BEEN DIVORCED FOR ELEVEN BECAUSE I WAS THE ONE WHO SCREAMED THE WORD DIVORCE AND THREW THE SYBLOM OF OUR LOVE ON THE FLOOR.
  THEN, I CONTINUED TO PULL HIM APART AS IF HE WAS EMIEM. Instead, I PROMISED TO LOVE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
  AT THAT POINT, I WANTED OUT BECAUSE I FELT LIKE I WAS CHOKING, AND I NEEDED THE ABILITY TO BREATHE AGAIN.
  I KNOW I WAS HELL WRONG, PASSING OFF A SMOKING MIRROR OF HAVING EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL WHEN I HAD NO IDEA HOW WE WERE GOING TO MAKE IT.
  THE ONLY THING I HAVE BEEN SURE OF IS HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM.
  ELEVEN YEARS AGO AND HAVING THESE DAMN PAPERS IN MY HANDS ARE BREAKING ME IN THOUSAND PIECES.
  WISHING I COULD HAVE A TAKE-BACK BACK, BUT IN LIFE, THERE IS NO TAKE-BACK. WE HAVE TO LEARN FROM OUR MISTAKES.

  Ms. Butterfly Genesis

  January 31, 2024

  Broken, DONE, DREAMS, Family, FINAL, Marriage, UNREALSTIC, Years

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• Bipolar

  Call me bipolar because my emotions have a way of going up and down, or sometimes I find ways of going back and forth on my feelings like a scared little girl. Yes, I am 40 years, but I have the right to be afraid because I have not had control of my emotions.

  UPS AND DOWN
  EMOTIONS
  BACK FORTH
  LOVING HATING
  INCOMPLETE
  LONELY

  IF THINGS MAKE ME BIPOLAR, THEN I HAVE BEEN BIPOLAR ALL MY LIFE, AND I AM GOING TO OWN IT. I HAVE MADE MISTAKES IN LIFE, AND I AM STILL A MAKING PROCESS WHICH I AM STILL GOING TO HAVE SOME BUMPS ON THE ROAD.

  So I AM GOING TO EVER BE COOKIE-CUTTER PERFECT. I AM ALSO NOT GOING TO ALLOW ANYONE TO HOLD MY MISTAKES OVER MY HEAD.

  I CARRY MY MISTAKES AND THE PAIN OF MY MISTAKES EVERY DAY.

  THE ONLY THING I HAVE BEEN CONSTAN ON IS WHEN I CHOOSE TO LOVE, I LOVE HARD, AND I ALWAYS KNEW WHO I HAVE LOVED NO MATTER HOW MUCH TIME HAS GONE BY. EVEN THOUGH WE BOTH LIVE SEPARATE LIVES.

  MS. BUTTERFLY GENESIS

  October 29, 2021

  Challenge, DONE, expression, Faith, Love, Struggles

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