Tag: thoughtless

• Useless

  I am not going to play the blame for the way I feel about the way I think of myself as a woman.

  No one has ever obliged me to do or stay in a place I do not want.

  All my choices for myself have always been in mind, body, and soul.

  If I continue to make the same mistake or relapsing is not because I care about who likes me.

  Chapter 40 is about loving who I am and realizing that I’m not going to be perfect, but I will keep becoming a better person no matter how many times I fall off because I will always be strong enough to get back up.

  I feel worthless not because anyone has made me feel that way but because I have been allowed to be in a place useless people never seem to leave.

  This message is for the whole world. If we allow others to make us feel useless, we will enable them to.

  If we no longer want to feel useless, we need to stop giving up or power away.

  Ms. Butterfly Genesis

  April 3, 2022

  Blind, can’t stop, desperation, escaping, Love, Obsession, overdose, Overlapping, Relapse, thoughtless, unbearable, unforgivable, warning

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• Belittled

  I’ve said this in plenty of my other pieces. I am the type of person that needs to be liked by everyone and excepted by my family. 

  Everything I have tried to do with my life is to get somebody’s approval or somebody with validation on who I am as a person.

   Coming into my 40s, I’m to the point where I’m tired of fighting and feeling like I need this person to like me, or I need my family to approve of the things I want to do with my life to feel like I have support.

   So here now, I don’t give a fuck if you like me; if you don’t like me, I don’t even care about them supporting me.

  One of my biggest insecurities, and I’ve never said it publicly, is I always care about what people think about me and their perceptions of me.

  I need to keep reminding myself every day of my life as long as I’m here at the People’s perception of me should not matter and should not validate the person I am and who I’m becoming.

  I’ve always walked on eggshells with my family because they’re my source of caregiving; they are The Who dirty their hands, wiping my ass every day.

   So I should have some loyalty to them. But, in reality, just because they wipe my ass doesn’t mean that I have to agree with everything they try to throw at me, and that does not mean they have the right to belittle me as a person.

  Just like my family should not have to put up with with myself disrespectful ass when I want to be a bitch coming out my mouth knowing that at the end of the day I’m going to need them.

  My validation has become within myself and no one else I’m a grown ass woman despite the fact that someone always has to wipe my ass so with that being said the validation stands with me and then anyone else.

  Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴

  December 30, 2021

  accountability, adults, Belittled, Communication, disrespected, maturity, thoughtless, unacknowledged

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• In Love

  I’ve always been the first to apologize for how my heart feels. But there’s nothing to apologize for this time around.
  My heart has always known whether I excepted or not where I would like to be, even though I have never come close to being there.
  I’m in love, and I fear being in love because there are two types of love you could be in love with the person; you could be in love with the idea of being in love with someone.

  I’m someone who does not only want to be in love with the idea of being in love; most importantly, I deserve to be in love with someone.

  So I sincerely hope that I’m not falling in love with the idea of being in love with someone hope and pray that I’m in love with the person and that the idea of being in love with someone.

  Ms. Butterfly Genesis

  November 9, 2021

  close, Crazy, Difficulties, Faith, Love, Ongoing, Opions, thoughtless

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• Fatherless Daughter

  She is a little girl that only knows a mother’s love.

  She has no clue what a father’s love should be because there is no imprint of what a father is.

  As a young lady, she begins to look for love to fill that space that only a father can supply for a daughter.

  I never understood that a father is supposed to be protected, not an abuser.

  She begins to find herself in situations that make her believe that as long as her body is cover in black & blue, that means that she is loved.

  Fatherless Daughters

  Black & Blue has never been a sign of love.

  The sign of love is & should always be red.

  

  The only way our fatherless daughters are ever going to learn about true love is by learning self-love; self-love respects one’s body as a temple.

  Also, understanding that giving our bodies away doesn’t always mean love.

  Fathers are the first relationships we have as little girls & young women we have & use those relationships to help us choose someone like our fathers.

  Stop making us fatherless daughters & become the man that we should dream of.

  Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴

  August 20, 2021

  Broken, Challenging, Gone, realistic, realization, thoughtless

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• How many Times

  
  How many of us say that we won’t look back?

  Not looking back is because how can anyone grow when we are busy looking back for something we believe is missing.

  Missing it because we never got what we deserved from the person we thought we should have arrived.

  I guess that’s the main reason we become curious and give ourselves the chance to look back because we don’t want to live with the what if in our lives.

  The moment we begin to live out the look back, the curious becomes a feeling of what I’m doing and a feeling of emptiness, looking for a way to fill it by looking back for that one thing we didn’t get the first time around.
  M.B.G. �

  August 16, 2021

  Challenge, happiness, Love, memories, powerful, Strength, thoughtless, unforgettable, women’s, Wondering

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