FIVE YEARS HAVE GONE AND COME FASTER THAN I CAN WRAP MY HEAD AROUND THE PHONE CALL I RECEIVED TO LET ME KNOW THAT SHE WAS NOT A PART OF THE PHYSICAL WORLD.
SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN FIVE YEARS PAPER IS THE WAY I LOVE TO COMMUNICATE, BUT MY CHOICE ON HOW I WOULD COMMUNICATE WITH HER; I RATHER HAVE HER IN PERSON SO I MAY SEE HER SHOCKED FACE WHEN I UPDATE HER ON MY CRAZY LIFE.
I MISS YOU EVERY DAY.
I LOVE YOU.
AS CRAZY AS IT MAY SOUND, YOU STILL OWE A PHONE CALL & I’LL WAIT AS LONG AS I HAVE TO BECAUSE YOU ARE AN AMAZING HUMAN BEING ALL AROUND.
It’s your birthday today. I know would like to be wishing you a happy birthday
It’s been three years since you’ve been gone, and it has not gotten way easier to deal with you not being here.
Happy birthday. Thousand times over, happy birthday, I miss you like crazy one of my many wishes for you would be happiness and more love than you can handle.
I want to be selfish and have God grant me a wish of hearing your voice one last time, or I wish God could allow me to wish you a happy birthday in person.
I never saw you crumble; I never saw you come loose or lose it.
All I ever saw was a smiling face and a heart bigger than anyone could handle.
Some days are more complex than others, but the way I managed to get those harrowing days is by looking at pictures that you and I would constantly exchange every chance we would have to speak.
A simple picture does not do it; you should be here celebrating another year of life with everyone that loves you. But, instead, I had to light a candle and scream happy birthday, hoping that you would hear me.
I’m angry that you are not here.
I’m angry that I could not call you at midnight.
I’m angry that God blessed me with the chance to see my 40th, but it was super easy to rob someone more deserving than myself away from that opportunity of hitting such a milestone.
I know if you are not in the physical world with all of us. Heaven will be the place to celebrate one of God’s top angels. So all I can ask for is that you do it big.
While we are resting, hold on to your memories and love. Happy Birthday, Big Head. Miss you so much
That’s why you probably answered your calling when it was time, and you knew you were finally going to run free without any body pain or anything else holding you back.
I am angry that you answered that call, not just because I would no longer see your beautiful face again.
I’m pissed off because one of the many children you left behind happens to be my mother, who had caught herself picking up the phone to call you because she was so used to hearing your voice and laughing about it when you guys talked about the good old days.
I know you could not help but answer the call that we all have to answer one day.
If you only knew the mom I once had, she is not even half the person she left with us.
If the walls could speak, they would be screaming your name; you definitely would get tired of hearing your name all day.
No matter how busy we try to keep her, nothing will compare to hearing or seeing you again.
I pray that you give her the strength to continue to see the days ahead.
As time goes on, I pray that you help her find that inner peace she is looking for when it comes to your passing.
I pray that you help her become the person she was before she understood that you were leaving us behind.
I pray that you listen to me and please help her come back to life better yet just to herself.
Losing you, I have somewhat lost the most significant part, my mom and your child.
The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly 