When I decided to blog, I was leaving myself open to people’s opinions and criticism regarding the things I decided to share on my blog.
I also understand that when I decide to share where exactly I am, people will only sometimes be friendly or understanding. Still, the thing about me is that I’m not looking for anyone’s sympathy or anyone to agree with my feelings and my thoughts.
My blog is where I can be vulnerable and share who I am and where this life journey has taken me for many years. I would always let someone’s opinions, feelings, and negativities scare me away from sharing myself, but now I don’t have to care. I’m 42 years old. Correction: I’m going to be 42 years old, so I no longer have to have a filter about what anyone else has to say about what I post or don’t post.
Being a blogger and being able to share parts of my life is a fantastic thing because I hope that by putting pieces of my life into my blog, I’m helping someone because I know I’m helping myself every single time I can sit with a piece of paper in my hand, and a pen, loving hand, and open my heart out is a fantastic process for me and helps me look at myself and try to understand myself a little bit better every day I’m not perfect. Still, I’m not trying to be, and I don’t want to be perfect. My imperfections are things that make me.
For a long time, I would allow people in certain things in my life to run me away from the things I love the most in writing. I can’t see myself doing or wanting to do anything else but writing. I don’t write any ability; I find completion when I can put myself out there and be vulnerable, something that I’ve always struggled with because I’ve never believed that people have wanted to listen to what I have to say.
The world will always have an opinion and criticize every little word and sentence because of their ability to break me.
Almost 42 means no filter, and no shame in my game means sharing no matter what others might think or feel, not alone fear to take over what I love the most, and that is putting word to paper.
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