I don’t know you, and you don’t know me personally, and I don’t understand why I feel the need to write to you, but I do so here. I am just putting a few lines together.
I knew of you before you were born, and let me see that when I found out about you, it was a shock throughout my whole body because there were so many different emotions running through me that I couldn’t process everything at once.
From day one, your dad has told me never to worry about you because you don’t care and want him to be happy. This is why I need to write down my feelings on paper.
I owe you that respect. I want to let you know who I am and what I’m about and open up that line of communication between us so you don’t feel like anyone is misleading you.
Since you entered the world, my concern has always been your well-being, physically, mentally, and emotionally. It’s always been about you, as it should be.
You are probably asking yourself. Why am I taking the time to share my feelings with you? Like I said before, I owe you that respect because you are the most important person in his life, so the most important person in his life. I want to open up that line of communication with you.
No, I’m not trying to replace anyone in your life or become something I’m not. I want you to see me as a friend you can depend on emotionally and mentally, not always physically because the distance is crazy.
Still, anything is possible, especially when someone means the world to you. There’s no distance far enough to keep you away from the person you care about the most, and even though you don’t know me, you have my whole heart.
Your dad and I have known each other for 22 years. That’s a lot of years, a lot of history. There are many good and bad times between times, but mostly good all the way around.
What makes your dad a particular person to me is the fact that he was able to look beyond my chair and see me as a person because I have to be honest with you: not too many people see me past my chair or my limitations, but your dad was one of those special people that was able to do that and was able to make me feel just like any other girl and treated me just like any other girl and because he was able to see beyond my disability, we were able to live out a fantastic romance with no embarrassment no regrets and no hiding.
Things happen for a reason. Every person has a season, and you and your dad had five incredible, challenging years together. If one day you want to know what those challenging things are, you can ask your dad or me, and I will be happy to answer those questions for you. We had to go through those challenging years.
The hardest part of those challenging years was when we finally pulled away from each other because there was a dark cloud of blue over us. We couldn’t bounce back from that, so your dad and I decided it was best if we went our separate ways and continued living our lives, and that’s precisely what we did. We moved in different directions.
To this day, we decided to separate, not because we didn’t love each other, but because we knew things would never be the same. The best thing that came out of our separation was you because he lives and breathes and sees through your eyes, and he sees his peace and gratitude because he has the most fantastic gift any man can receive: that daughter.
I’m grateful to God that he has such a fantastic daughter because you’ve taught him so much about himself and his self-worth as a man and a dad. Of course, I don’t have to tell you how amazing of a dad he is because you see it; you live it every day.
Who am I? I’m someone who shared terrific times with your dad. I loved your dad no matter what he did or didn’t do.
He was always loved and respected, but I removed her from his life so that you could be the leading woman.
I’m so glad that I did that because I now get to see him in the newest chapter of his life, and that’s being a fantastic dad to a daughter.
I’m not going to lie. When your dad told me he would talk with you about me, thoughts started running through my head.
My first thought was what was going through her head as they had this conversation and how much he was telling her about me.
You have always been my priority, even though you don’t know me and I don’t know you.
The main thing your dad and I argue about is the fact that I worry about you too much, he says, and I do because you’re a part of him, so if you’re a part of him, I have to worry because you’re part of him he’s a part of you. You’re a part of him, so I will always worry about you and whether we will meet one day.
You will always be my priority, especially if something doesn’t fit or is not working. I’m always going to make sure that I consider your feelings for the small things, for the big things, whatever it is.
I will always worry about what you think and how you feel. That’s just in my nature, and I’m a Virgo, so Virgos always worry and overthink things, but we also know how to have fun too, and I hope one day I get to meet your beautiful face in person so that we can torture your dad just a little bit.
Ms. Butterfly Genesis
The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly 