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priority
If I were his priority, I would be his first thought in the morning his last view at night. If I were his priority, no matter how angry how bad things got, he would fight for me or fight with me. If I were his priority, I would hear from him before the sun came… — read more
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If I were his priority, I would be his first thought in the morning his last view at night. If I were his priority, no matter how angry how bad things got, he would fight for me or fight with me. If I were his priority, I would hear from him before the sun came… — read more
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Death
It troubles my soul when people tell me that there’s a part of life like I don’t know how the circle of life revolves. I understand that living isn’t forever then; for this world to continue, we need to continue procreating new life to keep going, but that does not make it easier when you… — read more
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Bipolar
Call me bipolar because my emotions have a way of going up and down, or sometimes I find ways of going back and forth on my feelings like a scared little girl. Yes, I am 40 years, but I have the right to be afraid because I have not had control of my emotions. UPS… — read more
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Coming into your own
No one would ever have to say they deserve better if they understood that beginning better is within themselves.Saying I deserve better sounds great, but how can we get better when we have no clue what better can be for us.The searching process of getting better begins with us, but a lot of us believe… — read more
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The biggest lie I told
I’m good.I’m OK.I”m fine.I am happy.A smile so no one wonders about my unwanted tears in my eyes constantly crying every night because I fear to say I’m not OK because in society says it’s not okay to say it’s not okayPlease don’t make it OK within ourselves to say we’re not OK, so that’s… — read more
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Diamond
It’s easier to give in to those things that come more accessible than work for the things we want.Personally feel that if we do not work for the things that we want those things that we want in our lives, we lose value because we didn’t do anything to give it worth for us to… — read more
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One Mother
I did not understand your value as a person and mother until I no longer had you to fight with or talk to.I just saw you as someone who always tried to define who I should be and what I should be in life instead of accepting me for who I was and loving me… — read more
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Can’t
We love to play the blame a lot of time when we say that people stand in our way to get where we went to be. It might be true in many cases, but in many more cases, it is just predictive of our failure Before we try to succeed or fail. By using the… — read more
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I should be
I should not be just an option.I should be that first choice.I should be your first thought in the morning.I should add to your last thought of the day.I should see the reason why you decide to smile when you do smile.I should be the reason why you feel complete as a person.I should be… — read more
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Starting Over
Life is about up and down. Sometimes the ups and downs we go through in life scare us from the possibility of starting over. When people thinking of starting over, it’s a terrifying feeling in the world because they are standing alone with a lot of insecurities and what-ifs. Starting over is a complex picture… — read more
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What if’
When we live for what other people might say, we are not truly living for ourselves. Other people’s what-ifs are just simple opinions but should never dictate how anyone should live. As I am on chapter 40 in my life, I try to remember that every moment I live, I must cherish because those are… — read more
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SoUls in TwinE
She is trying to find the answers to many unanswered questions, but she doesn’t know where to begin or where it will end. She understands that heart Wants what it wants while everybody else is praying for her sanity and peace of mind. Given the best of herself, it has made it quite challenging for… — read more
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Duo
opening accepting acknowledging allowing possibilities Endless It’s a significant transition for me to think about these words when it comes to describing my relationship with my mom. I can’t pinpoint what has made me feel these words come true honestly, and I’m grateful to know that it hasn’t been too late for us to learn… — read more
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40th the Milestone
Turning 40 is the newest milestone in my life. It’s a milestone I never thought I would see because I had many odds against me that would say that I would not make it this far. Turning 40 will be a turning point in my life not to care about what others might say about… — read more
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A Woman
A woman is not a toy; she is a gift.A woman is not a game; she is a blessing.A woman is not weak; she is strong.A woman isn’t a bitch; she is a boss.A woman is not toxic; she is hurting from a broken heart.A woman is not afraid to teach, but she is also… — read more
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Self-motivation
We have to be our cheerleaders in life.Yes, it is excellent when people support us in any way possible, but what happens when that is not the hand we are in.Self-motivation goes a long way, and it also teaches us there is no better support than the one we can give to ourselves.When we are… — read more
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Businesswoman
In a world dominated by men, it’s difficult for a woman to be seen as more than just a housewife.We live in 2021, and we struggle to be seen as more than just mother’s housewives.The best job women have is the job to have the ability to bring another life into the world, but I… — read more
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Trying Times
If the layers of my skin are the only thing people can force on, then it’s a strong possibility that people are not looking at me with the right eyes. My skin is what covers my body.My skin is very much and proudly of the Dominican decedent with some American afro blood running through my… — read more
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woman
Mother’sDaughtersSisters Women have always felt like we should be seen but never heard because this is a man’s world. As a woman, there was a point where it was easier for us to believe that it’s always better to be seen & never heard. As women, we are not supposed to have a voice because… — read more
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Value
The word value is a strong word. When I think of the word value, I can’t help but also of the word reflection.Someone or something loses value when we no longer have it be a part of our lives. When we could longer see feeling it, or even smell, we value those we had in… — read more
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Power
Don’t blame anyone for not reach your goal.Anytime you blame someone for your failure, you become powerless, don’t become Powerless by hand over your power to anyone.Gain power by doing things that make you whole as a person.If you allow failure to come knocking on your door is because you choose not to fight and… — read more
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Rock Bottom
It’s true what people say, everything in life happens for a reason & we must hit rock bottom before we can realize our value as a person. I had to hit rock bottom to realize that I need to stop using my relationship with men to define my life. Don’t get me wrong, all my… — read more
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Body image
I have no control over my body because my disability does not allow my ability to shine through. Other people have control over my body, so I decided to control what I put in my mouth. That’s when that demon that I had no idea was living inside of me or how quickly it was… — read more
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A part
I don’t want to look back because that might be blurring my future.I don’t want to look back because I leave the door to relive something ugly that never builds me up but was strong enough to break me down. Looking back has left me questioning if I can see a future with my future… — read more
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Believe
Believe in you will achieve is a great quote that everyone should live by.Instead, we continuously listen to those who tell us we can’t or shouldn’t do those things because it will never happen.We live in a country where we feel like we need everybody’s approval before moving forward in our goals and dreams, but… — read more
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Right
Right place.Right person because they can make you feel butterflies.It’s just like wow, but sometimes we need more than just wow.To know what’s real and not a figure of our Imagination. Ms. Butterfly Genesis — read more
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I don’t
I don’t know how to reach out to him without making him feel like I’m pushing.I don’t know how to make him feel like it’s okay to allow someone in.Despite all the pain he might be going through, he doesn’t need to go through it alone. I don’t know how to get proper to those… — read more
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Clarity
Broken glasses finally help me see what I could not see before because anytime I look at the people around me, I would use my heart or look the other way. I no longer want to be the type of person that doesn’t see clearly because of my broken glasses. I want to see those… — read more
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Becoming Myself
Is knowing who I am.I am not caring what anybody thinks about me because I refuse to live for anyone else but myself.Becoming myself understands that God created me the way he did because he knows there would not be anyone else like me.Becoming myself Is excepting all the parts with me, even the parts… — read more
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Trapped
She is captive in the mold. Hoping to one day break free and reclaim what she knew one day was mine. She is deathly afraid to see and feel things. She thought she could only handle one time in my life. The reality of things is that the main things she is run away from… — read more
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Roles
I wear many hats.I wear the hat of being a daughter.I wear the hat of being a sister.I wear the hat of being a granddaughter.I also wear the of being an auntie. All the different hats have meant the world to me because I have learned so much about myself & the type of person… — read more
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Women’s international day
Women are amazing creatures.Powerful.Givers of life.Mother’snurturersBusinesswomen and entrepreneurs.Go, Geter.Smart.Beautiful.As women for many years, we’ve been told that we should only be allowed to be housewives and mothers. As women for many years, we’ve been told that we should only be allowed to be housewives and mothers.Today in the year 2021, we as women are more… — read more
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Better Version
I want to be a better version of myself for myself and no one else.I can become a better version of myself when I accept who I am and what I am despite what people think of me or feel about me.My past is just that, my history. So I refuse to live there, and… — read more
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Whatever will be will be
Whatever will be will be.Things happen with a purpose and a reason, but we don’t have to know why things happen.Whatever will be will be.Questioning things won’t make things happen; what will happen is making things happen is wanting them to happen. Ms. Butterfly Genesis — read more
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Choosing myself
I choose myself.If I don’t have the strength to choose myself, how else can I expect anyone to choose me? Choosing me means putting all my needs and wants. Choosing myself worse is knowing and understanding that nobody else’s opinion about me matters. Choosing myself is understanding the power of my strength and knowing that… — read more
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The Reality
No one ever has to agree on how I feel, but the way I feel is like I am just a painting on the wall that people have no other choice but to pass by on occasions when they need to go in a particular direction. I am a painting that no one bothers to… — read more
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Therapy
BrokenDamagedI am left questioning my purpose or why I decided to share my thoughts with the world.I feel like I should be embarrassed about sharing my life and other Intimate things with the world.Honestly, I’m not because I’m no different from someone writing; all tell books about themselves.I love sharing myself openly, and I hope… — read more
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My Worth
Society has no problems putting disabled people in a box because the community we are worthless and lazy, but that is so far from the truth; we have a lot of successful disabled people that don’t get the extensive management they deserve In society.I’m not going to lie; sometimes, as disabled people, we do not… — read more
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Happy Heavenly Birthday
I spoke to you that morning that God decided to call you home. No clue that would be our last conversation because God had plans for you that no longer had to do with the physical world. Everyone is always prepared to live life, but no one ever prepares us for death or says goodbye… — read more
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The last I love you
A mother is the real backbone of the family. When anyone loses a mother, it’s like losing a nurturing teacher, unconditional love. The loss of a mother is always unexplained; we want answers, but we never get them; all we know is that they are no longer physically here with us, and we still need… — read more
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Bright light
The bright light she is makes today not so much a nightmare but a true shining light.The light that gives me strength when I’m beginning to have a weak moment. She is that light that helps me fight the darkness.She is that light of peace. She is light that I will bend over backward to… — read more
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My guardian angel
A year has come and passed; it’s unbelievable that a year ago, we all surrounded your bed, hoping that you would give us a sign of hope that you would still be with us fighting to stay with us.A year ago today, my last words to you were I love you, and I pray that… — read more
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A True Angel
You have been gone for six months & it’s very untrue that I could not see you for mother’s day as I do every year. It is bittersweet. I know that your Birthday is coming up soon, and I won’t be able to see you sitting in your chair.Bright EyesBeautiful smileA massive heart that filled… — read more
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One month Anniversary
One month’s anniversary is here, and it still feels unrealistic when mom came home from the hospital and sat next to my bed to tell me that you finally left us.The easiest thing to do when we lose our loved ones is crying, but of course, they told me not to call; who in their… — read more
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CALLED TO HEAVEN
Heaven must be the most peaceful place. That’s why you probably answered your calling when it was time, and you knew you were finally going to run free without any body pain or anything else holding you back. I am angry that you answered that call, not just because I would no longer see your… — read more
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Finally Goodbye
No one should be able to say goodbye because goodbye is such a final word.Everyone who once loved her was there watching her sleep so peacefully like the sweet angel she had always been. I couldn’t help myself in the back of my mind and be selfish and cry instead of thinking about how she… — read more
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Happy 90th Birthday
August 4 would have been your 90th that we would have been more than willing to celebrate just to her surrounded by everyone that loves her.She would have been all smiley, ready to eat everything she could have gotten her hands-on.We probably would have allowed it because she loved to remind us she had one… — read more
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Unbearable
When I write, people must know about me because I speak about things I’ve gone through and have conversations with people who inspire me to write the things I put together. I’m not ashamed of anything I’ve ever posted because it comes from within me, not anyone else. I may not always write correctly, but… — read more
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Extend
She extends herself with kindness.She extends herself with love.She extends herself by being that backbone none ever is to him.How and why? Is she going to continue to extend herself in any way if he is not going to pour the same into her? Everything she once ran into now, she is going to pour… — read more
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Bosses
I’m always up, so super late because I still feel the best time to connect with myself and things I might be going through emotionally is when the rest of the world is sleeping.Late night is time to reflect on how my day was and where I see my life going, and honestly, I see… — read more
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What is normal?
ANYTIME PEOPLE TALK ABOUT HAVING A NORMAL LIFE, I QUESTION MYSELF ON WHAT DOES HAVING A NORMAL LIFE MEANS.DOES IT MEAN I HAVE TO BE ABLE TO BODY for MY LIFE TO BE CONSIDERED NORMAL. JUST BECAUSE I’M NOT ABLE BODY DOES MEAN I DON’T HAVE A NORMAL LIFE BECAUSE I HAVE A DISABILITY? MY… — read more
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Who’s at Fault?
Sit up that is the story of my life, right. I understand that everyone is nervous because to have any part of your body split open is no joke. I know how dangerous things are, but I’m fucking tired of hearing if you would have done this or that you wouldn’t be going through this.… — read more
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My wheelchair isn’t A Stop Sign.
Whenever I see my wheelchair, I see an accessory that I’m an honor to show off. From this day forward, wheelchair users stop staring because it will not change what it is, or someone staring will not allow me to walk. A wheelchair user should not give us an excuse not to live life. So… — read more
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Not me
Victim, I am not. Yes, I have a disability, but I am not my disability. If I get scared unexceptionable, I will jump out of my chair if I am not strapped down to my seat. It might be funny to others, but it’s not funny to me because it’s a constant reminder of the… — read more
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No Picture
Cerebral palsy is not something I could never be embarrassed by; cerebral palsy is something that I have lived with since birth.I want to believe that the main reason I’m so raw with my words is that my disability has taught me that I must be a stronger fighter.When I decided to put myself out… — read more
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Beyond disabilities
My physical disability is not something I’m trying to hide.My physical disability is not something I’m trying to hide or would hide if I could.There are times I question why I was born with such a disability, but I believe that I was born the way I was because God knew I would be a… — read more
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A woman on Wheels
Being a woman on wheels mean strength. Being a woman on wheels means knowledge, the ability to teach others that being different is not a terrible thing; it’s a unique quality about everyone a part of the world. Being a woman on wheels means fighting through discrimination and being invisible because of the wheelchair. Being… — read more
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Desirable and disabled
Yes, I’m beautiful.Yes, I’m sexy.Being in a wheelchair leaves me Vulnerable for people to assume the most outrageous things about me.People are allowed to assume what they want and ask what they want but don’t think just because I’m in a wheelchair that means I’m going to be this gullible person that buys into everything… — read more
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Moving
Moving forward is overcoming things that stand in our way. People that don’t leave the past in the past. My past is all about me taking on more than I could chew to make people happy. That includes lying to and cover-up what I could not do. As a result, I am stuck in my… — read more
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Not existence
I don’t existMy mistakes overshadow my existence.As well as challenges my future.My future is bleak because I am not allowed to live beyond my past. Ms. Butterfly Genesis — read more
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Painting
No one ever has to agree on how I feel, but the way I feel is like I am just a painting on the wall that people have no other choice but to pass by on occasions when they need to go in a particular direction. I am a painting that no one bothers to… — read more
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Open Wounds
Open heart.Open wounds need to be closed, but no idea how to approach them. There’s not a Band-Aid big enough to cover up all the scars she has carried for so many years in so many different stages of my life. It’s effortless for her to tell herself to get rid of her scars and… — read more
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Sharing Myself
Things have gotten so far to come back. I wish I could share my feelings with the world to understand better what I’m doing wrong. How in the right state of mind can I ever stop putting my heart on paper when I know the form is the only thing that allows me to be… — read more
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International struggles
Trigger words for me are:You are starting to feel heavy.You are fat.You need to talk to someone who can help you. These are all the things that put me in a lousy headspace because it’s a constant reminder of how little I can do for myself, and no matter how much control I would love… — read more
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The Last
If we continuously chase the way to make others happy, we could never make ourselves happy.I am the type of person who needs to be liked by everyone or acknowledge five people.So that’s why I always kill myself, trying to make others happy before making myself happy.Still, I can’t continue, And I know I shouldn’t… — read more
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Questionable
I’ve gotten myself into situations that have made me question my faith in God. I don’t want anyone reading this one day to think I don’t believe in God because I do.I know many people question if God is real because how can you believe something is confirmed when you can’t see you touch it.… — read more
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My prayer for her
God, please wrap your arms around her and let her know that she’s not alone. God, I’m asking you from the bottom of my heart, please shield her from her gloomy thoughts. Prove to her that you’re listening to her even when she’s crying. Of course, the more time she loses faith in herself, she’s… — read more
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Chosen On
Children are a real blessing from God because God has chosen us to be his givers of life as a woman. Having something grow & moving around inside a woman’s body is a real blessing because only then do I believe women understand what it takes for another life to come into this crazy world… — read more
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Cancer
Cancer is a battlefield that no one believes they’re ever going to step on until one day they wake up and realize that the word cancer is going to be a part of their lives for a while until we find a cure for this nasty disease that takes our loved ones from us. Cancer… — read more
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I pray
I pray for myself and the ability not to lose who I have become, justbecause of the person I have chosen to add to my life. I pray for true happiness within myself before I can become that true happiness for anyone else in their lives. I pray for self-discovery. Self-want. Most importantly, I pray… — read more
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Sorry
Sorry is such an easy word to say.The world uses the word sorry as a band-aid to cover up wounds by people we never thought would hurt us.If you are going to use the word sorry as a cover-up, so you continue to make your mistakes, or that could buy you more time until you… — read more
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Nice Girl
I have always been a nice girl because I have a hard time saying no to people, and I find it difficult to say what’s on my mind. Perhaps this is because I don’t like hurting anyone’s feelings, but the people around me don’t have a problem hurting me at all, just because they know… — read more
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M.I.A.
I’m smiling because I refuse to show anyone my sadness to anyone.I smile because I’m tired of crying.I smile when the thought of him comes into my mind, but I can’t help and be angry at myself because I have many unanswered questions.What Happened?Why did he choose to go M.I.A?I don’t want things like they… — read more
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Scars
Some people choose to run from their scars.I refuse to run from anything that shows that I made through a battlefield of things.My scars are a reflection of things that have made me a healthy human being.Being ashamed of these scars is like I’m ashamed of myself.I refuse to be ashamed of myself because these… — read more
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Waiting
Patience has always driven me crazy and has never been part of my strong suit. Patience is something that I’ve had to learn and be taught, and I’m glad that I’ve been able to be patient. Patience has taught me that waiting for things or someone special is always worth the wait as long as… — read more
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Fight For Yourself
Fight with the person who will fight for you.Fight for the person who believes in something and makes it difficult to fall for anything.Fight for the one who said I love you and does not struggle with your success.Fight with the one that will see you fall but does not hesitate to give you a… — read more
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Not Weak
She is not weak because she decides to stay.She stays to see him become the person he promised to be.Only when she gets tired of waiting for him to become that person he promise he would be will she realize how strong she is.Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴 — read more
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Pink Ribbon
The pink ribbon is a representation of the battle. That many women face today doesn’t matter the age, race, or where we come from, it’s just something that happens. Sometimes we don’t even have time to wonder why it happens. We know it’s a part of our bodies, and we must fight it with all… — read more
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Too much to say
Too much to say, but if I say anything, I’m wrong, and if I don’t say anything, I’m just a coward hiding. I’ve never known myself to hide from anything or anyone.The only time I feel free to be who I want to be is when I’m writing, and the fact that I leave my… — read more
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Tunnel Of Light
The only way Positivity will come in my direction is when I learn how to ignore others’ negativity, including my own. How to push through the negativities? First is going through the darkness until I can create a tunnel, so I’m able to see the bright light of happiness. Anything that lives in the darkness… — read more
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Let’s do it
I am a firm believer in speaking everything someone wants to do into existence.Suppose people want things to happen in their life besides talking about it. Then, people have to make it happen for themselves with determination and the will to believe in themselves. Most people believe that things should magically happen for them because… — read more
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Don’t
Don’t waste time fighting.Don’t waste time arguing.Don’t waste time trying to fix something or someone who is not fixable just because it seems like the right thing to do.Don’t waste your time being someone you’re not just to please others.Don’t waste your time giving excuses when you’re going to be doing what your heart desires.Don’t… — read more
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Grateful
Why do we have to wait for a memorable holiday to be thankful?Anytime God blesses us with the ability or grand to grant us another day. We should always be grateful without having to wait for a holiday to thank you or give grace to those who are still with us. 2020 has been a… — read more
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Impossible
I had to overcome being someone’s leftover by showing myself how much I am worth as a woman and putting myself first. By putting myself first, everyone who was important in my life is now taking a back seat to me and my happiness. Everything in my life seemed impossible because I was always worried… — read more
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Simple
A song brings a smile to my face.Past thoughts of you can make me uncontrollably or make me relive a moment in my head.A specific scent of his can place me back to the last time I was in his arms, feeling like a little girl.Photography helps me relive those moments I could only wish… — read more
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Expectations
He was the one person that gave her world because that’s what she meant to him.So he poured everything he had and even the things he did not have to give her.She soaked as much as she could because she had no idea how long it could have lasted.That’s why people should not go into… — read more
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Don’t Speak
Don’t judge.Don’t point.Don’t speak.The only time people should speak on anything that has nothing to do with them is because either they have walked a mile in your shoes before, and they are coming from the best place in their heart to warn people from going through what they have gotten through themselves. We are… — read more
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Cyberbullying
Social media has its good things as well as bad things. One of the good things about social media is that everyone can stay connected; The world has found a way to make social media work for people as a source of income. Social media’s downfall is that anyone can become who they want to… — read more
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Help
Addictiondarknesslonelinesswithdrawn from the world.When things fall apart, so do you.Trying to speak, but no one is listening.Ashamed.I was embarrassed because everyone’s moving, and I’m standing still, just watching and wishing it was me.Men have been programmed not to show emotions because showing emotion is a sign of weakness.Men are supposed to be strong and protectors.We… — read more
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Unsaid
I always believe in things that are better unsaid if no one has anything good to say. That’s why I have never bothered to say anything because I’m not trying to hurt anyone’s feelings.Fuck it; this needs to come out because I’m just choking & there are times I want to hang myself for the… — read more
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Irreparable
He pushed her into someone else arms.She finds those things that never came through him but someone else.She finds that laughter that she never thought she could ever get back.She finds the peace that she would ask for every day.She finds it more comfortable to breathe because she no longer has to feel the weight… — read more
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Unlike
BEING HUMAN DOES NOT MEAN WE SHOULD ALL LOOK ALIKE. BEING HUMAN DOESN’T MEAN; WE SHOULD NOT ALL BE THE SAME COLOR. BEING HUMAN DOES NOT MEAN WE SHOULD SPEAK THE SAME LANGUAGE. BEING HUMAN DOES NOT MEAN WE SHOULD HAVE THE SAME BELIEF SYSTEM AS THE REST OF THE WORLD. I AM ME, BUT… — read more
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Alone
I’m alone in more than one.I’m alone in the sense that I feel crazy trapped in my feels.Anytime I open up my mouth, it turns into a battlefield of everything that comes out of my mouth.I’m alone even though I come from a large and what is supposed to be a caring family.I feel the… — read more
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Invisible
InvisibleunseenunwantedunexpectedunspokenunheardunlovedundesirablemisunderstoodThese are all the walls that help me build up the many barriers that hold me up, but I’m hoping that I can break down those walls to see myself one day.Look at me. Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴 — read more
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Painful
Besides all the pain that my heart is feeling, I feel more alone with each day that keeps passing me by. I am trapped in a place that has never felt like home to me because I am not myself and, I feel the need to be withdrawn from those who think to may know… — read more
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Transparencia
If we try to live as transparent as possible, we must understand what transparency is all about; what other things are true. My truth is this I’ve always felt like I’ve never been late or wanted unless I will give me something back in return to be warranted or to be needed; other than that,… — read more
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Whole Again
It’s natural to break someone’s heart.The challenging part of dealing with someone who has been torn apart is knowing that you were The Who broke it.I’m left wondering how I can make him whole again when I’m still struggling with putting myself back together because if he wants to take any responsibility for anything, I’m… — read more
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Broken Wings
TODAY IS ABOUT LOVE, BUT IN THE FORM OF A BUTTERFLY, THE BUTTERFLY IS A BEAUTIFUL CREATURE OF GOD BEYOND MEASURE.SO LIGHT, GENTLE, AND THE WAY SHE SPREADS HER WINGS FLYING IS THE TRUE BEAUTY. THE Multiple COLORS OF EMBEDDED INSIDE ITS WINGS. THE COLOR OF THE BUTTERFLY SHOW HOW FRAGILE. A BUTTERFLY NEEDS TO… — read more
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Shattered
Broken Shattered Blinded by what she thought was love but turned out to be a reality that she had lived just without the large bank account or whatever her heart desires like a shopping spree. Spiritual broken because she finally thought she would have it all & finally be proud of the woman she felt… — read more
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Overdose
I finally did to myself; my life has ended; I’ve overdosed. No, not on coke, crack, or even ecstasy. I overdosed on love, or at least what I thought was love, but it was nothing more than a desire or feeling. The feeling of being in love, and the desire to be loved, that’s what… — read more
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What is she doing here?
The visit was not about jumping into bed with him. It was about pure desire out of feeling wanted about him again instead of feeling the hate. She has been getting from him for almost a year that we have been broken up. NervesOut of placeShe was asking herself, what is she doing here? But… — read more
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Eleven years ago
Cleaning leads us to find things that we probably never thought of finding until I found myself cleaning. It took 11 years to find the papers that were supposed to be my forever but became a lesson learned that did not come out of a princess book. Princess books have stories of love, honor &… — read more
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Stand in our Truth
How can you sleep with yourself or live with who you are as a person?Living in one truth and be honest with yourself.My truth is simple: I never wanted us to be the best friend or break bread with you at the same table, but I wanted to prove that I can better the women… — read more
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UNSPOKEN
I don’t mind when people find themselves talking about me and the kind of person I am because people don’t mind wasting their time on little me, and my fanatic passed. I guess the real-time I must worry about it is when people stop talking about me because it means I no longer matter if… — read more
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Forever
Picturing forever is hard work that comes with that forever.That forever begins the day both parties say I do.When they do, ‘s are finally said & done, the hard work of getting to know each other as a husband And wife begins.The first way is to understand that the roads ahead will not be secure,… — read more
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Blackjack
She played into his hands like a game of blackjack. She was desperate to know if he would not be like everyone she has shared in her life. He knows all the right things that will get her heart without making any significant moves. Every little girl or women dream about what the perfect relationship… — read more
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vows
I can’t say I know you.You can’t say you know me either, but I pray that with this new journey we are about to take part in, I hope our hearts and souls can and will become one as time goes on. The journey of discovering who we are as married will differ from the… — read more
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Thirteen years ago
Thirteen years later, still running through hoops and chains just to be seen acknowledge by someone who has no idea what the other person has been through since Departurefrom each other.Feeling the need to prove anything to anyone but still Finding little ways to justify or prove the difference between whom you were back then… — read more
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Finalizing
7 PM in my bed watching a movie million and one thought running through my head.I can’t make sense of one single thought that is running through my head.Today marks a historical moment in my life, and that was the day my unwanted divorce was finalized because one night, I decided to explore like a… — read more
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Wife
How does she go from feeling like his wife to feeling like the other women? When it comes to staying on top of his business, she is his wife that only a wife should know about her husband. She also finds herself becoming his slut when he remembers having a free pussy that he can… — read more
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Home
Anytime things get tough, she finds herself contemplating when things were pretty not smooth but smooth enough to make her feel like she was at home.She finally was able to say something that she hasn’t been able to communicate in years, and that was the fact that she never knew true happiness until things Disappeared,… — read more
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He Knows
He knows me better than I know myself.He can finish my sentences before I can spend thinking about what I’m going to say.All he has to do is look at me to know something is wrong, even though I keep telling him nothing is wrong.It’s terrifying that he knows me even more than the people… — read more
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Trust
A piece of paper is just a piece of paper with no words, but anytime I find myself with a bit of paper in my hand, I can see myself in every single word I use because every word I use describes some part of me. Trust is an essential piece of any relationship people… — read more
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Lifetime
A lifetime is simple forever.A lifetime is a chance to grow together. Also, understand that it’s okay to be our person outside of our forever.Lifetime should be something that no other human being besides God can pull apart.Lifetime is the commitment that someone should make only in their lives because they know they found the… — read more
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Building Steps
When building relationships, there are steps to follow:Such as let’s start as friends.Let’s be transparent as we can be. I want to know that I’m looking at my best friend.Knowing that the person, I’m sharing a body with respect enough to understand there is more than sex that holds a relationship together.CommunicationTrustHonestyGrowth as a couple… — read more
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What hurts the most
What hurts the most is a title to one of my favorite songs. That song has always brought me to a happy place anytime I need a comfortable position.There is a specific line in this song that has always caught my heart & that line is being so close and watching you walk away.That line… — read more
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Best Friends
She falls in love with her best friend.Friendship without expecting anything in return made that much easier for them to fall in love.Falling in love with him came to nature, and later on, that friendship foundation was the one thing that helped her discover if it is love or was it just a friendship that… — read more
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Friendship Role
It hurts to be the bigger person, but it needs to be done, especially if I want his friendship.Friendship is better than not having anything at all.Being just friends is a new role for everyone in this Playing field, but I know we can make it happen if we both want it.As a couple, we… — read more
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Breakup
Breakups are unavoidable. We need some pain so we can build ourselves into better people. When it comes to matters of the heart, there’s no better reason to rebuild when your heart has been broken 1000 times over. Anyone can rebuild their hearts; we have to through a checklist of questions of why me how… — read more
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Not looking back
I don’t want to look back because that might be blurring my future.I don’t want to look back because I leave the door to relive something ugly that never builds me up but was strong enough to break me down. Looking back has left me questioning if I can see a future with my future… — read more
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Future
I don’t know if we will ever get things on track. Getting things on track is letting go of the old stuff and building on new chapters. Those chapters have to include being each other’s best friends and understanding that we both came in with not so innocent past before our first hello. I know… — read more
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Close the door
Close the door before allowing another door to open. Closing the door on something like your past makes sure that the person closing that door is ready for something new. If not, we can find ourselves with a messy front door, asking ourselves if everything we are doing is for the right reasons. We should… — read more
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Taught Me
Anytime a relationship comes to an end, it’s difficult for both parties involved. When both parties understand everything they have put in the relationship, it hasn’t been enough to keep them happyWhat has been for so many years? That’s why I can’t help but have a confused look on my face as I take pen… — read more
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Clock Out
Feeling wrong about what anyone has to say about me should no longer make me feel bad about myself since I have heard bad things about myself since I can remember. It’s not new stuff. It is the usual something like, damn, she means or why she has to ask me instead of someone else?… — read more
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I saw what I wanted to see
I felt things that I never thought I could feel again.The best feeling I have been able to feel in a long time is that school girl crush.I could smile without someone making me feel like I should not be.Texting for hours gave me a reason never to go to sleep because the moment I… — read more
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Questioning Unknown
I’m not trying to question his motives, but I can’t help myself.Doubting myself in and doubting someone who wanted me has always been easy.The most challenging part of getting close to someone is not feeling like someone’s experiments or a charity case.I’ve been through such difficult times in my life; that’s why everyone around me… — read more
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Not Envy
Every pain is different.I’m in so much pain I can’t, and I won’t name it.Besides the pain, I feel right now, and I think so, I’m so unlucky.I am unlucky because I sit on the sidelines, watching everyone around me find or be in love with those who love them.I was sitting on the sidelines,… — read more
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Lost & Found
A bad day just because it was only one of those days.Then I believe god plackets my lost & found in my hands to take me back to the happiest moments. Many people, including myself, have been caught out there saying there is no time to look back, always look forward but, I could not… — read more
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Quit
I never quit on you because quitting on you would have been like leaving myself.I have never been a quitter.I’m too strong of a person to quit.I also know when it’s time to let go. Ms. Butterfly Genesis🇩🇴 — read more
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Respect
She never thought she would lose people she thought were her friends over a man but the lack of respect between people. When we tend to lose our Friendships is because things begin to change within that friendship or relationship. To put in black and white people grow apart and have noroom in what is… — read more
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I’m not, but I’m so much more
I’m not smart enough for you.I’m not beautiful enough for you.I’m not even sexy enough for you.I’m not enough woman for you. She feels broken anytime she hears those words coming out of the person’s mouth supposed to love her the most. Those who love us the most end up hurting our souls the most.… — read more
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Breaking down
I have many walls that stop people from getting to know me or how I am feeling.Breaking down these walls means letting go of all the negative things that have held me back from moving forward like I know I should be doing.Letting go of things that have always been with me is scary to… — read more
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Cutting
Why keeping cutting myself? If all I do is cover my body with unnecessary scars, relieve the pain running through my body. Watching the blood run down my arm feels good because that’s the only way of letting go of the pain that chokes me every day of my life. I feel I am choking… — read more
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My Truth
THE GREAT THING ABOUT LOVING ONESELF IS ACCEPTING ALL THE GREAT THINGS & ALL NOT GREAT THINGS ABOUT WHO SOMEONE ELSE IS.LOVING ME IS UNDERSTANDING THAT I WAS BORN TO BE A BITCH.LOVING ME IS UNDERSTANDING THAT I LIVE IN MY PRINCESS WORLD WITH DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES.LOVING ME IS UNDERSTANDING THAT I HAVE A NASTY HABIT… — read more
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Self Love
Understanding the first real relationship anyone should have is with themselves. The reason is that we can define real love in ourselves, so when someone else decides to join our lives, we don’t get stuck encompassing love through them. Self_love has the strength to put ourselves first and know that everything will be okay with… — read more
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Under conditional love
Saying that she doesn’t care about me would be very unfair because I have seen with my own eyes what she has given up for me. I have to be honest with myself and her. She has made me feel like I can’t get anything done for myself if she is not by my side.… — read more
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What is love
Love can’t break anyone unless we give someone the power to crush us with love. Love is a feeling that most of us fear because love is a blind game that people struggle to trust. After all, love is an emotion that can’t be seen; people can feel what’s going on when happy or broken.… — read more
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Blessed (happy birthday)
So emotionally, and I can’t help but think of you today because today was the day you made your debut into the world. You came into my life much later, and you were an absolute blessing because you gave me a new way to look at the world. After all, I was able to see… — read more
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Support System
I have so much stuff on my mind; I am surprised that I have not ended up in the crazy house with the rest of the stupid people. I know being a part of this world, I can’t be everything to everyone. So all I can try to do is be that support system I… — read more
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Fatherless Daughter
She is a little girl that only knows a mother’s love. She has no clue what a father’s love should be because there is no imprint of what a father is. As a young lady, she begins to look for love to fill that space that only a father can supply for a daughter. I… — read more
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Daddy Isuesses
I know his name. I saw his face whenever he was home. There were a few times where Iwould have some insurrection with him. Even with minor Insurrection between us, I still find myself with daddy issues. I have a daddy to say I have a daddy. I never got to know a daddy because… — read more
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Daddy’s little girl
When a man has their first daughters, they learn a different language of love.Daughters know how to melt any man’s heart.At least that’s what we are supposed to do to our daddy’s heart.My situation was different; my father was around for a while, at least physically, but he was like a ghost emotionally.Until he disappeared… — read more
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Charge
HumbleHumilityGratitudeUnconditional LoveUnselfish putting my needs before her own.Having the feeling like superwoman, even if that means dragging herself to care for me when I understand that she should not be caring for me anymore, I should be making sure that she is being taken care of as the queen that she is.I know that she… — read more
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Motherhood
When women decided to become mothers, it was an honor that god blessed.Being a mother is a gift that should not be taken for granted, even though many of us take it for granted because we don’t always do the best for everything for that tiny human that has grown inside us for nine months.It… — read more
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Daughter
I want to raise a daughter to believe in herself.I want to raise a daughter to know she can be whatever she wants to be as long as she puts her mind to it.I want to raise a daughter to understand that being a female is incredible.I want to raise a strong daughter.I want to… — read more
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Burden not a blessing
It’s crazy; it doesn’t matter how old I get or how much time passes; her words always seem to affect me in the worst way possible.I had a bizarre awakening moment today. That moment was that no matter how much time goes by, I’m always going to be the target that she shoots that I… — read more
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Little Girl
Who is going to speak for that little girl who has no voice?Who will make that little girl feel like she belongs no matter what anybody else might have to say?Who will protect and keep this little girl safe?Who is going to teach that little girl she is enough?The only way a little girl will… — read more
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