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Conflict
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I Rise
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resilience
From the ashes of despair, a phoenix rises,A woman of strength, full of surprises.Broken, yes, but never defeated,With every fall, she’s more complete. She stands tall amidst the storm,Transformed by trials, she breaks the norm.Each scar is a story of battles won,A testament to all she has overcome. With courage as her compass, she charts… — read more
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Peace Of Light
In the silence of our shared dreams,Where time stands still, or so it seems.Our forever was cut short too soon,Underneath the watchful eye of the moon. Anger burned, a relentless flame,At you, at life, at God’s own game.Why you? The question echoed starkly,Leaving me alone in the dark. But time, the healer, showed me light,To… — read more
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rediscover
**I thought I could be his everything,** **On top of being his everything,** **I could be whatever I wanted to be for myself as well.** **But in the process of being lost,** **In the process, I gave and gave until I couldn’t give anymore,** **Because I was completely gone.** **So what else was… — read more
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Happy international women’s Day
Indeed, the role and perception of women have undergone significant changes over time. Historically, many societies had limited roles for women, often relegating them to the background. However, through persistent efforts in advocating for gender equality, there has been a remarkable shift. Today, the empowerment of women is a central theme, with a focus on… — read more
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THANK YOU
Congratulations on reaching 5000 K viewers on your blog! 🎉🎈 It’s an incredible achievement, and you should be proud of yourself. 🌟 I understand that sometimes emotions can cloud our perspective, but take a moment to appreciate the significance of this milestone. 5000 K viewers means that thousands of people are interested in what you… — read more
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How do I know when it’s time to say goodbye?
Saying goodbye is like unraveling a tightly woven tapestry. Each thread, each memory, clings to the fabric of our existence. The door stands before us, its hinges creaking with the weight of our shared history. We hesitate, fingers brushing against the wood, torn between longing and resignation. He, a phantom etched into the corridors of… — read more
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Beauty isn’t everything
Strength, indeed, is a remarkable form of beauty. It transcends mere appearances, reaching deep within the core of every woman. It’s the quiet resilience that carries her through storms, the unwavering determination that fuels her dreams, and the fierce courage that propels her forward. Beyond the surface, where skin meets sunlight, lies a force that… — read more
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Eleven Years Ago
ELEVEN YEARS LATER OMG, I HAVE SOMETHING TO HOLD THAT MAKES OUR DIVORCE REAl MENTALLY, I HAVE ALWAYS HAD AN UNDERSTANDING I HAVE BEEN DIVORCED FOR ELEVEN BECAUSE I WAS THE ONE WHO SCREAMED THE WORD DIVORCE AND THREW THE SYBLOM OF OUR LOVE ON THE FLOOR.THEN, I CONTINUED TO PULL HIM APART AS IF… — read more
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Happy 44th Heavenly Birthday
 Your birthday came and went, and I couldn’t even focus on writing you a simple post like I usually do on your birthday and the day of your anniversary. Writing would be easier because all I have left is a pen and paper to communicate with you. I hate that the only way I can communicate with you is through paper and pen,… — read more
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HANDS
Hands Soft touch. Desire excitement. Chills down and up my spine, anticipating his next moves. Safety security that’s what his hands mean to me. His hands help him explore my body, and as we lock hands, our souls become one. As we become one soul, it isn’t easy to become two separate souls again after… — read more
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Preparing
How do we ever prepare ourselves to say goodbye? Are we ever to say goodbye to anyone we care about? I never had the chance to say goodbye. I know I should not feel like you cheated me out of more time with you. But I need to be honest with myself; I feel cheated.… — read more
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Where I Be…
I find myself struggling where I am.I know where I see myself and where I should be.The part I struggle with is I have a plan to get where I should be.The old baggage I refuse to let go of is the only thing holding me back.I am terrified to see who I would be… — read more
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Prayer
No one should have a specific reason to have a relationship with God. We should all want guidance and something to believe in. Why not believe in God? God doesn’t give any of us anything we should not handle. I’ve always been the type of person only to find my spiritual side when I feel… — read more
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Being Me
For a long time, I thought that lying was the right thing to do, but self-consciously, I knew it was the wrong thing to do because I knew wrong, and I knew the truth from a lie. I found it easy to keep the truth from those I cared about and the kids about me. I felt if I was ever to be… — read more
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The only_One
I had no idea the last time I heard his voice would be that final goodbye.Goodbye to him, and I never really said to each other.We hung up the phone, but I never thought it would be so final.In the darkest moments of my life, he became that bright light that I needed to get… — read more
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Won’t let go
I thought we were unbreakable because nothing could make it through steel.Whenever I think about us, I think of steel because I knew no one could ever make it through.Solid from beginning to end.Best friend to amazing lovers who could challenge each other without losing sight of who we were.How could we go from being… — read more
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Two heart beat that became one
I miss and love you more than anything.You should be so proud of me. I finally was able to tell your daddy about you. I want to believe he was super excited to know that there was a part of him and I grow together. Funny but not funny, your daddy called you into existence… — read more
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Chess
I love who I am with him.I hate who I am without him, but I am better off knowing that the best thing for me is to be without him because I no longer feel like a chess piece; he moves when it feels right for him to move.I hate who I am without him.Love… — read more
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42nd Birthday (Blessing)
What can I say? We made it 42 years together and many more to come; in our case, we had no idea we would make it this far. I am when I see Vee. Of course, I’m in my twin brother, the woman who gave us life and gave up everything to ensure we had… — read more
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Not Ashame to ask for help
Why is asking for help such a difficult thing for people to do? We hurt ourselves a lot more when we can’t put our pride aside and say I need help because a lot of us have been conditioned to handle things alone, but sometimes we need that helping hand that’s going to pull us… — read more
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Stop being selfish and let’s be woman of power
I was unsure if I would speak on this subject that’s going on on social media with Erica, Mena, and Spice from Love and Hip-hop. I am a woman of Hispanic descent because both of my parents are Dominican. I might not be a woman of dark skin, but I consider myself a woman of… — read more
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No filter
When I decided to blog, I was leaving myself open to people’s opinions and criticism regarding the things I decided to share on my blog.I also understand that when I decide to share where exactly I am, people will only sometimes be friendly or understanding. Still, the thing about me is that I’m not looking… — read more
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Girl
GIRL, WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF?MY RESPONSE IS SIMPLY WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU I’M IN LOVE WITH HIM.YOU INDEED LOVE, AND NO ONE IS TELLING YOU NOT BECAUSE AS LONG AS YOU HAVE A HEARTBEAT LOVE WILL BE POURING OUT FOR HIM.I HATE THAT, BUT GIRL, THAT IS YOUR TRUTH AND ANOTHER TRUTH… — read more
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Challenges
Close one door before opening another door. I am trapped in a doorway I have tried to close for many years. It’s been unhealthy for my heart and soul just because I have poured myself and what I don’t into the impossible. The part of who I am is I don’t back down from a… — read more
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Pride
It’s a shame that it’s 2023, and we’re still fighting for equality to love who we want, not who society wants us to love. 2023 we should be embracing each other, not fighting for something that should be given because equality is for everyone. In 2023, we need to stop giving labels the power to… — read more
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Happy Father’s Day
Being a father is a tall drink of water that most men are not ready for. I believe the boys have the notion that as long as they can release sperm, that makes them a man because they have created another human being. Boys can always release sperm, but that does not make the men.… — read more
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Start
Close one door before opening another door. I am trapped in a doorway I have tried to close for many years. It’s been unhealthy for my heart and soul just because I have poured myself and what I don’t into the impossible. The part of who I am is I don’t back down from a… — read more
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Five Years
FIVE YEARS HAVE GONE AND COME FASTER THAN I CAN WRAP MY HEAD AROUND THE PHONE CALL I RECEIVED TO LET ME KNOW THAT SHE WAS NOT A PART OF THE PHYSICAL WORLD. SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN FIVE YEARS PAPER IS THE WAY I LOVE TO COMMUNICATE, BUT MY CHOICE ON HOW I WOULD… — read more
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I’m that Bitch
Maybe I am a sensitive bitch when I know I shouldn’t be because I should be used to it, but no one in the world should be treated like it on the wall.But I am a sensitive bitch because I get tired of hearing when you need a favor; I do it for you. I’m… — read more
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Keep Our Children Save (Nashville)
Children are true blessings that can change the world.Children have the best chance to teach people about love kinds accept who they are as people.But, unfortunately, all children want to feel like they belong somewhere.It’s a shame that some people don’t or could not never imagine what strength it takes to bring another life into… — read more
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Birthdays
Birthdays are a celebration of life and the person accomplishes, whether here or not.Birth is a true gift from god that no one should take for granted because we feel like we can and should.It’s so difficult for me to live in the moment sometimes because my brain is always ready to move on to… — read more
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Find It
Summary This episode is also available as a blog post: http://msbutterfly081.blog/2022/11/21/find-it/ Transcription — read more
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Empowerment
I need to get something off my chest, and it’s essential. We always talk about women’s empowerment, but it’s so easy to break down a woman over any little thing, such as body shaming someone because they don’t fit someone’s stereotype is difficult to believe in women’s empowerment when you have celebrities and Women who… — read more
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Happy international woman’s day
Every day should be a woman’s day.Women are the true meaning of strength, perseverance, and resilience. But unfortunately, for many years, women were meant not to be seen and never heard.We were allowed to have opinions or thoughts about anything, but today’s women, it’s all about independence being fierce, being your boss, and writing your… — read more
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Cerebral Palsy
March is the month of Cerebral palsy, and for those who don’t know what that means, I don’t look at cerebral palsy as a disability but as an ability to do things the world said I would not be able to do. Cerebral palsy occurs during birth, and that’s what we do during our difficult… — read more
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Enough
I am enough. I did enough. I can let go. Ms. Butterfly Genesis — read more
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Be Loud
The only time the world can hear us is when we realize that our voices are the most vital tool we can have as humans.Speakout.SpeakUpVoice matter because we matter no matter what the world thinks of us. Ms. Butterfly Genesis — read more
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Do It
I wish things could be different in my life. I need to stop wishing and start doing what I need to do to make those essential changes in my life. Throughout my life, I have come to terms with the fact that I could not or should not try to change someone just because I… — read more
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Every day is the day of love
Valentine’s day is considered a special day because that is the day that you spend with someone extraordinary. So why should we wait for such a day as Valentine’s Day to tell that special someone or anyone in general that we love them and admire them? Time is minimal for all of us. So we… — read more
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My Person
There is so much bullshit going on in the world beyond my heart.But I seriously can not help and feel like I’m losing my fucking mind because there is no off switch to my brain or way to erase who and what he was in my life.If I dare to erase that part of my… — read more
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Under
I don’t want to be stupid.For you to be successful, I have to have the strength to the door of feeling unwanted and under deserved just because my heart wants what it wants.My heart is clueless about the fact that no matter what the heart wants, it might not be what it needs.I might wish… — read more
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Stupid in love
Stupid, in loveHold on to a heart that doesn’t belong to me.They wondered why I couldn’t wash off the feelings that keep my heart alive, like when has to wash the dirt out of their hair. Stupid in love and desperate for a heart transplant, I no longer feel I need someone who does not… — read more
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Home
Summary This episode is also available as a blog post: home-2/ Transcription — read more
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Falling
It’s okay to break, especially when we can find the strength to put ourselves together. Finding those pieces to rebuild who we are and a better version of who we would love to be. If we break, we can show ourselves that we are humans and that our vulnerability shows us that we are not supposed to be statues that… — read more
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Bitch
If l have time to bitch about what I no longer want to be for others. I should be able to use the same time to change those things that make me look fragile and use me at my disposal because it’s no secret that I enjoy making others happy and putting my happiness on… — read more
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Against wanting
To stop loving him, I need to use my heartlessness and allow my mind to take over. Even with all the mind power we Retain as humans, I can’t stop thinking about him and how much I could make things different between him and me by making a simple wish. Life is more complex, though.… — read more
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How are you creative? How am I creative? My creativity comes through paper and pen because that’s my way of being authentic with myself and everyone else who reads my blog or sees my YouTube videos. The funny thing is that being creative means being naked with the truth in my imperfections; I sometimes struggle… — read more
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Social Media
Social media is not accurate social media has become like a smoke and mirror of things. The people enjoy watching. As an influencer or whatever people want to see me, I don’t put my entire life on social media because I know social media is not accurate. I understand that social media can be cruel and very mean. If you don’t have… — read more
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Puzzle Of Mental Health
Stephen Boss, a charismatic hip-hop dancer and television personality known as tWitch who rose to fame on the reality show “So You Think You Can Dance” before becoming a regular on “The Ellen DeGeneres Show,” died on Tuesday in a motel room in Los Angeles. He was 40. The death was ruled a suicide by… — read more
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Miss You (Happy Birthday sis law)
On another birthday without her, people would think I would be over it & I would see her birthday as another day. She has been gone four years, and I still feel unsettled with her not being here celebrating her birthday. I miss that I can’t pick up the phone & give her all my… — read more
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Gathering Who I am
Broken Shattered In pieces Dragging myself so I can gather myself so can become whole again. Feeling whole again is important because that means I can sit in my shit and forgive myself for those mistakes that have helped me become the person I am today. Who I am is working on progress which is… — read more
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Find It
I lost myself while trying to please everyone in my life or around my life. The funny thing is that while I try to find myself again, I am losing the people I have spent years trying to please. I’d rather have me than people constantly waiting for me to please them instead of pleasing who I’m trying to become,… — read more
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You
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shanquella Robinson (Friendship)
Friends are hard to come by. When you have a group of men or women that we can call friends, we should our most brutal hold on to those friendships. People nowadays need to learn how to maintain healthy and genuine friendships with each other. The saddest thing about any friendship with people is that… — read more
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AfterThought
I constantly complain about how tired I’m of someone’s afterthoughts.I just came to a realization, and the first thing that slapped me in the face was that I needed to stop playing the blame and own my shit.The shit I need to sit in; I become an afterthought to others because I have been an… — read more
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I am
I am a working progress.I am enough.I am putting all the love I would pour into others just because I matter.I matter because I’m human, and I can acknowledge the best version is not being perfect but being myself, including my flaws. Ms. Butterfly Genesis — read more
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Home
Home is comfy.`Home is safety.Home is love.Home understands that no matter how badly I could mess up, those arms will welcome me back and let me know everything will be okay.Home has never been perfect; home is what I have made it to be, and the main thing I have completed my home, home to… — read more
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Cancer
Cancer has many different faces. Cancer does not have a specific race it Chooses to attack. Cancer is not Forgiving of anyone’s age. Cancer will never understand the true meaning of having a life of needs and wants. Cancer destroys the body, but I feel it would never destroy someone’s spirit because that’s how we… — read more
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SHOULD PEOPLE BE ABLE TO MAKE THEIR OWN RULES?
THE OLD SAYING HAS ALWAYS BEEN IT’S NEVER TOO LATE TO DO ANYTHING WE WANT TO DO IN LIFE AS LONG AS WE HAVE THE DRIVE TO SEE IT THROUGH. WHAT I’M ASKING IS, DOES THE SAME RULE APPLY WHEN IT COMES TO LOVE? I’m STRONG, BELIEVE IN WRITING MY OWN RULES WHEN IT COMES… — read more
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You
Be fearless.Be unapologetic.Be worthy. Be you. Ms. Butterfly Genesis — read more
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Self-Caring
As women, we are taught to be givers.Teachers of life.As women, we have the most satisfying job: the ability to mold those little lives that will one day change the world we live in today.We love unconditionally, no questions asked.We are guides without life understanding that passing judgment on who they are and how they… — read more
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HIM
A day full of anticipation.Nervous.Excitement but confusion because we need to think of anyone or anything else but the moment we shared.They might’ve been selfish on both parts, but it was something that needed to happen because we both had to become one, at least for that moment in time.The most devastating part for me… — read more
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Voice
I can’t be scared of who I am.I am not a superwoman, even though I love playing someone who can and should be able to do it all.Women have been seen as weak beings that should be seen and not heard for centuries.It’s taken me 41 years to discover that my voice matter. I’m not… — read more
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Woman first
My wheelchair is a part of my everyday life. But, unfortunately, it isn’t my whole life. First and foremost, I am a woman, and sadly, the world won’t see that first. I’m not going to apologize for my disability ever. But, unfortunately, my disability will be a big red stop sign for some people to… — read more
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Impossible
Everything this seems impossible is possible as long as this changes and growth.Nothing in life is impossible, but if we make an unbelievable, we’ll never see the possibility we want and what we need from ourselves and everyone else around us.We are the only ones that turn the impossibilities into two possibilities of happiness: success… — read more
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You
Trace of me all over you is what I dream of & desire. Anytime I find myself with you, I slowly find a piece of myself that I love more than myself. There is a better me in the world because I am flawed with your time, patience, and understanding. Those flaws don’t seem so… — read more
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Insignificant
She is insignificant.She is worthless.She has no value in my life.No matter what she tries, she will always fail simply because she is a failure.He might be her happiness, but she is not his.Those are wounds that bleed every time she leaves herself vulnerable to him, understanding that she does not mean anything to him… — read more
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Lifetime
A lifetime seems impossible even when feeling like we have the best base relationship. Even the best base can have an invisible crack that can make us why and how it is possible.It doesn’t matter how the best something can be. Even the best thing can and will fall apart if we don’t learn how… — read more
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Please Me
Please my mindPlease my soulPlease my heartAnd then you can please my body with the connection like no other of two souls becoming one. A link that no man or woman is strong enough to break because it’s a connection you and I only share.No one will ever know or understand our inside jokes, And… — read more
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NOT A LIFESTYLE
I might be broken for the moment. It doesn’t mean I should stay broken because they expect me to do that. We should never do what the world expects us to do; we should do what we expect ourselves to do for ourselves. If we choose to stay broking, we believe we don’t deserve better… — read more
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Powerful
Words only become powerful when we, as people, give them. As people, we have to know that we are the ones that decide how much power we give each word that we speak into existence. We also determine if we will provide these words with positive or negative emotions and why we must think before… — read more
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Rebuilding
Sometimes we have to break to rebuild stronger. Stronger to fight for who is. Who we are is individuals that try to fit in. So we may feel like we belong. In a place that has never adapted to someone like myself. Who fights to adapt to the world around me. Ms. Butterfly Genesis — read more
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Won’t Let Go
I need my best friend because I am about to fall apart. I want my best friend to catch me and drag me out of myself. My best friend told me they would not let go no matter what life placed in our lives, So now I am sitting here unsure of myself. The only… — read more
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Souls
We should never force pieces to fall into place.Pieces should fall into place naturally without someone forcing it.If we try to force pieces together, we tend to watch things fall apart faster.Knowing where and how to grab those pieces falling apart becomes challenging.As those pieces fall apart, we have to sit within ourselves to figure… — read more
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Prepare
Damn, the worst thing anyone can hear is I must prepare myself to deal with her. So I want to ask, what does that mean you must prepare yourself to deal with her? I already feel like I’m a burden to everyone around me. So when I hear someone say, I must prepare to deal… — read more
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Second & minutes
Make sure that each moment we live has a purpose. Make sure that each moment matters and fulfills our soul. Make sure that each moment we live counts. Let tomorrow be the farther thing from our minds. Moments are second minutes we won’t get back, so let’s learn how to live with distractions while still… — read more
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Above Water
I saw another beautiful soul left this earth. Yes, I understood it was going to happen because that is the circle of life; we come into this world with a birth date but never date of death. No matter how much preparation we do, it’s just not fair, but nothing in life is suitable. Anytime… — read more
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Be Pride
Pride week is the celebration of equality, no judgment, and having the freedom to love whoever you desire to love. Pride is about love, acceptance of who you are, and not being ashamed of who you choose to love because that’s not what the world expects you to love. This world is full of ignorance,… — read more
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Happy Father’s Day
Happy Father’s Day to all the fantastic fathers worldwide and those wonderful mothers with no choice but to be both fathers and & mothers”s their children. Any man can make a baby, but it takes a remarkable man to be your father. Just because you make one doesn’t make you one. You have to be… — read more
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Jump Off
Yes, I am disabled, but I am a woman first. This means people in my life and those who have not been a part of my life for several years need to realize that I am 40 old with no type of shame in my game. I chose to blog about parts of the world… — read more
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Help Worldwide
As I prepare to put together another gun violence article together, all I can think to myself is how can I keep myself from being completely respectful. When we Are far from respecting each other and respecting the life God has given us, this particular shooting I’m going to speak about is the shooting that… — read more
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Choices
My heart is weighty simply because, as women, we take our abilities to have children for granted. The main reason I feel the way I do is Because we have 17-year-old girls that have no business having sex or having children. What’s even more frustrating is how easy it is for them to bear children… — read more
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Safety Place
I began my blog because I needed a safe space to express myself and my feelings without judgment. I’ve felt physically, emotionally, and mentally exhausted in the last few months.I feel like no matter what I do with my life or don’t do with my life, someone has something to say, and I’m just tired.… — read more
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Happy Mother’s Day
I’m not speaking from a mother’s perspective but a daughter’s perspective; why do mothers only deserve one day to be honored or celebrated. Mothers deserve more than one day to be kept and shown how much they are loved because to be a mother, women have to learn how to be selfish and put a… — read more
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The First Man
The first healthy relationship daughters must establish is with their fathers. Unfortunately, many fathers don’t understand the impact they create once they have daughters. I firmly believe that if we had fewer fatherless daughters, we would know and understand the standards of a real man and what love should look like and feel like because,… — read more
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The Heartbeat
The heartbeat inside me made me realize you were more accurate than anything else. You had no name, but I knew you were real because your heartbeat was right underneath mine. If I could be honest, I was freaked out but also excited. I could not wait any longer to meet you and see who… — read more
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Knife
Don’t keep stabbing me with your words. I stab myself every day with the reminder of not having you a part of my life. What I saw as a simple mistake was life-changing for all of us because as I sit here today, I always go back and what if in every situation I go… — read more
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Complete incomplete chapters
Books are full of chapters; some are more interesting than others, making some books difficult to put down. Eventually, we will have to find a way to put the book down because those chapters that we see as so interesting will end. The most exciting thing about ending chapters or just the book, in general,… — read more
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Goodbye doesn’t exist
Anytime I think about the last time you and I spoke anytime, I think about the last time you and I said, Your voice becomes haunting to me because I had no idea that that would be the last time I would ever hear your voice, your laughter. Like the rest of the world, I… — read more
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Single
I am single.I’m unavailable to the world because I am getting to know who I am without the definition of someone else. I’m Single because I need to put myself back together to be whole for myself. I’m single because I want to see what someone can bring to the table before I leave my… — read more
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Find what makes us
Sometimes in life, we let particular things in our own lives discourage us from what we want for ourselves.I know it’s easier said than done to say don’t let things prevent you away from the most positive things in your life. Sometimes we hope and pray that somebody brings this positivity. We have to find… — read more
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Nothing I do with my life will ever make sense to anyone, and at this point in my life, I’m not looking to make sense to anyone but myself. I understand why I get myself into situations. After all, I always dive in headfirst because I want what I want when I want it. But,… — read more
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Loop Off
I find myself in the place where I’m asking myself where, when, and how I could end up here again. I find myself in a bowl of different emotions hoping to Unroll all these other emotions that have rolled up in a giant ball that might drop at the edge of a dime if I… — read more
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Guilt Trip
Family is supposed to mean unity but unity means different things to different families. My family is like a popularity contest of who’s the favorite and who is the family’s black sheep, and guess where I fall in my family’s line. I am the black sheep of my family because I don’t have a bond… — read more
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Try Me
Try me in any way, and you’re going to find out who I am and what I’m capable of. Box me inside a box because I’m different, and Society doesn’t accept those who are different. So I will break through the chest and show Society who I am as a person. But, unfortunately, if I… — read more
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Pay Off
Anybody that has known me for a while has known that I’ve been through hell & back. Last few years of my life, I’ve taken this time in my life now to do a lot. That means spending time asking myself the most challenging question in the world. One of those questions is, what will… — read more
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Useless
I am not going to play the blame for the way I feel about the way I think of myself as a woman. No one has ever obliged me to do or stay in a place I do not want. All my choices for myself have always been in mind, body, and soul. If I… — read more
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Ms. Butterfly Genesis
When I decided to brand myself as Ms. butterfly Genesis, it was not to change my identity because I’m still me. I just wanted to see if I could build something from nothing I have. I’m very proud of it because I’ve expanded my blog; into what I believe is a fantastic podcast and created… — read more
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Detox.
Sometimes, to detox the negativity in our lives, we have to have the strength to realize that things or people make our lives very toxic. Toxicity’s it’s like a significant roadblock for anything and everything you might want to do with yourself. The only way we can on unblocking those roads is by watching who… — read more
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Reaction
Before I begin putting this piece together, I would love to start by saying I’m not attacking men for defending their women. I’m a firm believer that men should protect their women at any time. I’m also not trying to be a hypocrite and say that you’re a celebrity; you should watch how or where… — read more
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Reflection Time
I have so many people in my life.I had hurt those who genuinely tried loving me for me when I had the strength to be the real me.I could honestly say no one knew when I was trying to be the real me because I developed such a lair reputation that made it difficult for… — read more
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Level
I don’t know to feel today, but all I know is I feel like a ball of emotions. Today is one of those days that pass me by, and I have no clue where it will end. I would love to set straight if I have been on this journey of self-discovery, and the most… — read more
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Accessibility
There are so many issues in this world, one of the main issues besides no jobs lack of homes for people. Many people like myself and I struggle with this accessibility and living in NYC, which is supposed to be one of the most accessible places in the world. I’ll be a wheelchair user myself.… — read more
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Women’s Day
BossesIntelligentIndependentStrongWarriorsSurvivorsFor many years women have been known to be the backbone of their familiesWomen are amazing. That’s why we should always respect ourselves and uplift ourselves because if we don’t do it for each other, who will do it for us today? So we should honor ourselves and every single woman around the world.We should… — read more
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Mold
Don’t change who you are for anyone. If you try to change for someone, they are not genuinely excepting you for who you are. Yes, compromise is a big thing in relationships, but you should not change your whole existence for someone is not trying to see beyond those flaws. They’re so focused on changing… — read more
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One Whole
When we get into relationships as women, we would love to believe that love should be enough to survive, and maybe for some women, it is. Many of us, though, want more than just love; we want that partner that we can communicate with without judgment or fear of not being heard. I always believe… — read more
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Forever
I don’t want to see you. I don’t wish you harm. I thought we were going to be forever because that’s what my heart desired was my forever, but you just became a moment in time. A moment in time pushed me to learn survival skills and learn about who I was and who I… — read more
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Walk
I’m so proud of myself.I just overcame a milestone.It’s not a secret that I struggle with being a people pleaser because I need everyone to like me, and I just wanted that feeling of acceptance.I am in the journey of finding out who I am as a woman and as a person, so at this… — read more
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Happy Valentine’s Day
Happy Galentine day to all my beautiful single ladies.I’ve always been a firm believer in only using a particular day or a memorable holiday to say I love you to someone. We have had a crazy three years with Covid, and we should not use a day late Valentine’s Day to say I love you… — read more
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Incomplete WOMAN
If I am incomplete as a woman to myself, how can I pretend to be whole to the rest of the world? I can’t be a complete woman for the world and part of it. Taking accountability for not knowing who I am or what I am looking for as a person or woman makes… — read more
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Love is not a movie
Love is not always what we are subject to when watching a love story in a movie. Love is about knowing who you are as a person and how you are in love with yourself. Every day, you allow yourself to discover something new who you are. Love is a feeling that many of us… — read more
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Who am I to myself?
Who am I to myself? It’s crazy that I know who I should be to everyone else in my life. I should be perfect for making up that I am not physically perfect to the rest of the world. When it comes to who I should be to myself, I’m clueless because I’ve been so… — read more
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Instrument
Everyone is a voice. Everyone has a voice. Everyone has the right to use their voice, but people must understand that their voices are a powerful tool that can make or break people. We have fought long and hard to be heard, so now that we know that we can speak our minds, we should… — read more
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Two years
It’s been two years since the last time we said goodbye I have no idea what to say or how to feel that you don’t already know or haven’t seen for yourself since you’ve left us. Two years and it seems like it was yesterday that everyone that you ever loved or ever touched in… — read more
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Stop Hating
People honor a man who died for change, and that has been some changes, but my opinion is the world has not changed enough because people are still looking at each other’s skin. We should feel like a melting pot part of a beautiful rainbow by now. But, instead, we are still fighting for the… — read more
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Vague
I did not have to look back. I want to look back because I felt I could get that incomplete off my heart, and all I believe I received was a sense of a stupid woman. Stupid woman because I choose to feel inadequate about holding on to the vague feeling over what was once… — read more
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Bold
I have tried to be Bold but couldn’t be because I always worried about hurting someone’s feelings. All my life, I have been taught or Intimidated by the fact that I always need someone for the rest of my life. Therefore, I should not try to bite the hand that feeds me or cleans my… — read more
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Stupid in Love
I wouldn’t say I like the fact that he lives in me. I have yet to learn how to let go without falling to pieces. Falling into pieces because my heart is twisted into his, my biggest fear is no longer connected to him. Everyone is looking for some connection that you can’t explain with… — read more
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Tough Love
Dear self you’re so good at giving everyone advice, but I don’t understand why it isn’t easy to take your advice. You know how to uplift the world with all your positive thinking positive words, but who is there to inspire you when you need uplifting no one because you make it seem like you… — read more
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No Name
FindingKnowingUnderstandingAcknowledgingPushing beyond all obstacles that say no while I say yes, I will.Yes, I will be true no matter who I hurt in the long run.Yes, I acknowledge I’m not perfect, but I never tried to be perfect because becoming perfect is like living in a bubble.I already live in a bubble because the world… — read more
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Belittled
I’ve said this in plenty of my other pieces. I am the type of person that needs to be liked by everyone and excepted by my family. Everything I have tried to do with my life is to get somebody’s approval or somebody with validation on who I am as a person. Coming into my… — read more
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Merry Christamas
Christmas, I believe, has been very much commercialized. I also think that everyone has lost the true meaning of Christmas. I’m 40 years old. I was a little kid; I had everything about heart desired more. Thinking back on those times, I can’t believe how lucky and how blessed we were as children coming up… — read more
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Not where I want to be
I am mad at myself because I’m 40 years old disabled, and I still live with my mother. I’m at a point in my life where I can’t even stand being with myself because I’m aggravated at the fact that it seems like I will never get the chance to know what it’s like to… — read more
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The Light
It’s incredible what happens between two people when there’s no real conversation. It’s taking me 14 to 15 years to realize this person will never be my person because of my unruly mistake. I mistake I regret every day of my life, and I punish myself for every single day because instead of living my… — read more
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Myself Conversation
I need to have this conversation because if I don’t, I will continue to feel like I’m losing my mind. This conversation should’ve happened years ago, but it’s better late than never. I guess I love someone who doesn’t love me. Even though I know and I’ve heard that he no longer loves me, I still hold out hope… — read more
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I am Happy
If I am happy today, it has nothing to do with you. If you see me satisfied, leave me alone because I can finally breathe freely without the pressures like feeling chained up. I am happy today because I finally found that peace of mind within myself. I finally completed it because I am beginning… — read more
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Don’t stereotype
I’m pissed off because I am a disabled woman. I’ve been disabled all my life, so it’s nothing new. However, as disabled people, we all get labeled with different categories: lazy, unworthy, worthless, and unmotivated. My disability has given me so many physical limitations did that’s why I am so determined to make something of… — read more
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Happy Heavenly Birthday (sis In-law
It’s your birthday today. I know would like to be wishing you a happy birthday It’s been three years since you’ve been gone, and it has not gotten way easier to deal with you not being here. Happy birthday. Thousand times over, happy birthday, I miss you like crazy one of my many wishes for… — read more
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Saint Jude (Home away from Home
I thought this would be a simple piece for me to write because I’m so used to putting my feelings on paper. It’s not as simple as I thought it would be because researching to give people some knowledge on cancer has been around for years. People don’t realize that cancer has many different faces… — read more
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Educated
Teachable moments happen every day, and it’s up to us if we accept them at teachable moments in our lives. Life is full of teachable lessons, and it’s up to us what we take away from those lessons that life is trying to teach us. For example, one of the biggest lessons that life teaches… — read more
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won’t
It’s not that I can’t stop speaking to him. It’s more about how I feel when I don’t talk to him. I couldn’t even imagine not speaking to him for as long as we did not. I guess what made it a little easier when we were not talking was that we were heavily involved… — read more
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Grateful
There are many things I am grateful for one of the main things I’m thankful for is my family; even though sometimes I feel like I don’t fit in well, I don’t belong, but I am grateful for them. I’m also internally grateful foR the mother I have and that she is still around for… — read more
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Breathe
I breathe to stay alive.Every breath I take comes with unbearable pain, not only because my body is breaking down but also because I’m broken. I am trying to piece myself together to become one again or at least feel like I can be one again when that time comes for me to be one.… — read more
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The One
I need to love myself a little bit more. But, I can only do that by realizing that I need to let him go as much as I love him. I’ve always been scared to let him go because he’s such a big part of my heart, but now I understand that for me to… — read more
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Open Mouth
Writing has always been therapeutic because I can talk myself through my words, feelings, and emotions. There’s another way I’ve been able to find myself, and that’s being transparent with my heart and what that means is acknowledging the fact that the reason I am in the headspace that I’m in is that I am… — read more
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Gift Or Plan
God has a plan for everyone who enters the world. However, I have never been quite sure what his goal has been since I was born. The only thing I have been sure of is having that gift of sharing my story on my blog and showing the rest of the world that the disabled… — read more
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Self-love
Self-love is essential because the only way we can learn about self-respect. Rejection is a part of life, and as people, we have choices; one of the choices we have is to take the rejection for what it is and not do anything but continue to feel like a rejection. Or use the worse feeling… — read more
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My love lettler
I have no clue why I decided on 11/16/21 to write him a love letter, but I am guessing there is no wrong time to write a letter to someone you saw forever. Love hurts like hell because you have the strength in oneself to open your heart up and allow that other half in.… — read more
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Forever
Now that I no longer have you, I wish I could have used my time the right way.At this point, what would have been the right way to spend our time together.Time with you seemed like quicksand; it seemed like no matter how many memories you and I tried to build, time was against us.… — read more
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Under Construction
I am not the best writer in the world, and I’m not trying to be. When I decided to pick up and pen and put it to paper, I knew that I was going to be sharing my imperfection through writing as far as my grammar is concerned, and I have been okay with that… — read more
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Million
My heart is in a million pieces, but it’s no one else fault but my own.I need to detach my heart from feeling anything that could be hurting me, like love is pulling me. If people don’t allow themselves to go through pain, there is no growth within ourselves as humans. Pain has been a… — read more
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In Love
I’ve always been the first to apologize for how my heart feels. But there’s nothing to apologize for this time around.My heart has always known whether I excepted or not where I would like to be, even though I have never come close to being there.I’m in love, and I fear being in love because… — read more
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