The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly

No one should have a specific reason to have a relationship with God. We should all want guidance and something to believe in. Why not believe in God? God doesn’t give any of us anything we should not handle.

I’ve always been the type of person only to find my spiritual side when I feel like I have my hands tied behind my back, and there’s nothing for me to do but turn to him and hope that he makes it all better.

I don’t want to be that type of person anymore. I look for God when I don’t have a way out. I want to give myself to God because I need strength. I need to know that he doesn’t expect me to be perfect and understands that I need to heal.

I need to heal from all the damage that I’ve been through; for me to heal, I need to allow myself to break into little pieces and then find a way to put myself together, but I won’t be able to do that until I find my purpose or his purpose for me.

I need to understand that before I can belong to someone, I need to belong to myself and treat myself with respect, dignity, and love.

I would love to stop.