The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly

Anybody that has known me for a while has known that I’ve been through hell & back.

Last few years of my life, I’ve taken this time in my life now to do a lot.

That means spending time asking myself the most challenging question in the world.

One of those questions is, what will I do with the rest of my life? I sound like I have it together for most people because I’m doing things that make me happy, such as blogging every day, making videos, and all of that good stuff.

Then, when I have a moment to think to myself and have a chance to reflect, this is not how I saw my life being alone at the age of 40.

I thought I would’ve had my own family, better yet, just a place to call my own because, to my surprise, I’m still at home with my mommy.

I’m not embarrassed to admit that, but I don’t want this life, and it’s easy to say what we don’t wish to than it is to say what we want.

If we don’t like something, we have to try our very best to change to get what we want, and positivity is key to getting everything that we wish.

Still, then again, I have to remember that God doesn’t always give us what we want; he gives us what we need some, assuming that God still thinks that I still need to be mommy’s girl because he has me still living with her.

She still sees me as this vulnerable little girl who can’t and will never be able to take care of herself, which is far from the truth.

I will never be able to physically 100% be able to take care of myself, which I’m aware of.

Still, I can make it out on my own I need a chance or an opportunity to be on my own.

Not because I want this family situation anymore. I know too many people I’m going to offend by saying this.

I’m 40 years old. I’m not trying to bring a baby into the world at this age in my life. What I would enjoy is a life partner who supports me, gets me can laugh and cry at the same time with me, who doesn’t pass judgment, and most definitely does not care about my past.

So my biggest goal being 40 is success at my level; whatever level that is, that’s what I want. I want to financially say I can take care of myself just by speaking about my life.

I think my life is so fucking exciting, and I’ve always wanted to share pieces of my life because of everybody.

I have ever come across has always made me feel like my life is so much better. After all, everything is given to me.

I don’t have to worry about anything because it’s just taken care of for me, and that’s far from the truth.

I love work; whether blogging, I make videos to make videos. I enjoy what I do. But unfortunately, I have a passion for money is not the best right now.

If you don’t enjoy what you do or are doing it for the money, you’re doing it for the wrong reasons, every single piece of my life. I share something personal; something intimate I didn’t start blogging because I thought I would make thousands of dollars or open up online stores.

I thought I would make thousands of dollars; no, I did that because of disabled people.

Don’t have many opportunities, so we have to take all chances to survive in this cruel world that does not work except for us for who we are. I love riding.

I might not always write correctly, but I love to do it. So, I find myself in every piece I put together.

I hope to inspire someone else who feels defeated and thrown away with every work I put together by society.

Ms. Butterfly Genesis