The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly

Sometimes, to detox the negativity in our lives, we have to have the strength to realize that things or people make our lives very toxic.

Toxicity’s it’s like a significant roadblock for anything and everything you might want to do with yourself. The only way we can on unblocking those roads is by watching who or what is holding us down beside ourselves Is the fear that we have of moving forward.

I have to detox from certain people in my life because then I am holding back, but the feelings I have for them are holding me back from moving forward in my life and reaching a happy place in my life, a place of completion and having a full circle with myself.

So the only way I can come full circle with myself, it’s finally detoxing myself from those memories in those feelings that haunt me every day of my life because I allow myself to.

For many years I feared letting go because letting go facing things alone, and who wants to be alone?

Even when I had the opportunity to share my life with amazing people, I still felt alone.

I would not allow myself to be vulnerable with anyone because I was terrified of judgment this is not being understood for the person I was.

Even though I struggle to figure out who I am and what my primary purpose is today.

I don’t want people to misunderstand me. I love being able to blog all day long about my life.

I enjoy blogging because I share very intimate parts of myself with the world, and I hope that by doing so, I’m helping someone in the darkest moments, even in the happiest moments.

In this self-journey that I have going with myself, it’s difficult for me to say that I’m 100% happy, honestly.

I have good and bad days, and I realize it’s OK when I’m not OK. This journey has been incredible. Let me understand that no matter how much you want something doesn’t mean you’re always going to get it.

You can change 1001 things about yourself, but if no one’s willing to remove The negative image of who you were from the person you are today, it’s difficult for anyone to move forward.

It’s also challenging to continue to say I am a different person, but if I’m still showing my ass as if I were the same person, I was running away from life.

Words don’t mean much these days is; the actions behind those words speak volumes of the type of person I am becoming, and I’m working very hard on keeping around.

Ms. Butterfly Genesis 🇩🇴