The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly

I did not understand your value as a person and mother until I no longer had you to fight with or talk to.
I just saw you as someone who always tried to define who I should be and what I should be in life instead of accepting me for who I was and loving me as your loving daughter.
Now that you’re no longer here in the physical world with me, all I desire is a simple argument or just a simple I love you to make my pain just a little bit better. I wish my heart and heart could and should be on the same page, but sadly, they’re not.
My head understands that pain is a part of everyone growing pain, but the heart struggles to understand why you and why pain needs to be a part of my growing pain.
I feel like if I had allowed myself more time with you, we could have learned so much from each other.
I feel right now that I blink and open up my eyes, and I am saying bye.

Ms. Butterfly Genesis