The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly

I’m not trying to question his motives, but I can’t help myself.
Doubting myself in and doubting someone who wanted me has always been easy.
The most challenging part of getting close to someone is not feeling like someone’s experiments or a charity case.
I’ve been through such difficult times in my life; that’s why everyone around me is questionable, including myself, because I’m not sure if they accept me for me or not. So secretly, I’m not sure if I allow myself or stop looking at myself like in experiments because that’s how everyone has ever treated me.
I want to allow him into my life without the fear of feeling like it will blow up in my face again. I know better than to judge people because people are always judging me, but it’s tough not to sit back and think of all the negative things that have to me. I know it’s easier to fear the unknown than to worry about what she knows.
Ms. Butterfly Genesis