The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly

I am not a parent, but I am struggling to let go because I am the baby of my family, and most importantly, I have nothing but limitations that my disability places on my everyday life.

I understand that it is difficult for a parent to see their children leave the nest for a parent, but it’s part of growing up and becoming responsible adults in the world.

I believe that it is extra challenging for my mother to think that I would want to leave her because she has poured her heart and soul into me. After all, she knew that I did not have a fighting chance to live the life I have today without her.

I know that she believes that I don’t understand everything she has given up to raise me, and I know more than she thinks.

I understand that she has given up her own life so I could always be cared for like only a mother knows to care for their child but watching for me the way she has cared for me throughout my life has left me feeling smothered and wanting my wings so I may fly on my own.

Being my mom is a 24 hour day job, with no vacation time and no one else to give you a break if you need it. So I don’t make her job any more manageable. After all, I am willing to tell her off in a minute because no one else would understand my frustration when it comes to not caring for myself the way I would like.

I know that she gave me life, and she deserves all the respect in the world because I only have one mother, and she has given me all of her without a second thought of what that would mean for her life.

One of the things I am struggling with right now is her not understanding why I would like to be on my own or feeling ungrateful for everything she has given up.

I want to be on my own, I believe my disability should not stop me from deserving of my own life, and this is the only way I will find out what I was made up as a disabled person.

After 32 years of caring for me, she gets her life back, and she is free to do things that she has wanted to do but, because of me, she has turned away from those things.

I want her to live for herself and realize that she has been my biggest and best blessing in life, no matter where I might end up.

Ms.Butterfly Genesis