The Memoir Of Ms. Butterfly

I don’t know if we have ever had a mother and daughter relationship where I could be myself and not fear your reaction about anything that might come out of my mouth.

I am with pen and paper, hoping that you may see me through my words since you struggle to see who I am in person.

I struggle to have any relationship with you because you can’t see me as your daughter you love and have watched me grow into a beautiful woman.
You have struggled with me as your daughter, let alone as a woman, because of my disability.
My limitations should never be that wall that keeps us from building that relationship I have needed in my heart of hearts.

I know she was born with a disability.
I could never forget that I cannot function without others helping me.
I am not asking you to forget my disability either, but I am asking you to see me beyond my limitations and see me as just your daughter.

From the first breath I took into my body to stay alive and become who I am today in my life, the daughter who has fought for her life.

Who I am is someone reliable and someone who has never seen limitations for herself.

I know someone is looking at those limitations for me.

I am not blind; I see that I will need help for the rest of my life to live a healthy life like everyone else around me is living, but that does not mean I should not have a life of my own.

You will always worry because you are a mom, which is part of your job.

I love the fact that you love me as much as you do because, with all the love you have poured into me, I have been able to keep going in this crazy world but, there has been a downfall in your loving me as much as you do and, that is your struggle to let me go.

I understand it’s not easy to let your baby go, and I am not trying to say it should be easy, but if you don’t work on it, you will never know my abilities because my limitations will always hold you from letting me go.

I deserve my own life, and you deserve your life back because all your kids are grown, but I know you cannot have your own life if you are always busy worrying about me and my care.

I love you because I know what you have given up so I may have a chance at life, and I am not trying to break free from it because I am ungrateful.

You have always told people that you have allowed me to find myself as a person, but I don’t see how you have allowed me to find myself as a person when you still see me as a five-year-old little girl that is always going to need her mommy just because I’m disabled.

I will always need my mom, but not because I am disabled; you are my strength teacher and just my whole life.

I hope one day, not too far away. Then, you can see me as your daughter and not just your disabled daughter that has all these limitations.

Ms. Butterfly Genesis🇩🇴